I suffer from Sleep Paralysis. My attacks are not frequent but they are annoying when they hit. I first noticed them growing up in Marysville, Washington. I was 12 then. We lived in a two story house with three bedrooms. My first bedroom was tiny. The walls are blue and the floor dark green. My bed faces the door and I can see into my sister's bedroom a little bit. My first attack lasted two minutes. I was trapped facing my alarm clock. I was scared and slipped into the throes of a panic attack. When it finally ended, I shot out of bed and flew into my parent's room across the hall from my little bedroom. After a few more attacks, my doctor diagnosed it as SP.
Now here is where things go Nightmare on Elm Street. I dealt with my SP and now I was 22 and living in a tiny apartment carved out of the downstairs of the house. Licorice (my cat) was 12 years old and asleep curled up by my side. It was peaceful and I was facing the screen door of my bedroom. To fall asleep, I was counting the flickers of the street light visible through the trees outside my bedroom.
Licorice was suddenly thrown into my closet and the door shut behind him. I found myself flat out on my back. I couldn't move. I felt something probing my body. Licorice screamed from within the closet. I felt as if something malevolent was attacking me and Licorice was trying to get to me. It was as if something was keeping him away from me. During this time, these white flashes started going off in my eyes. Then I was bolting up into a sitting position. Licorice shot out of the closet and all but climbed into my pajama top. He was shaking like a leaf.
I have a strong mind and often have visions of things to come. A trick I taught myself is to shield my mind by visualizing a barrier around my mind. During this attack, I could feel as if someone was raping my mind with light. I felt something snapping when it finally ended. After this attack, my mental barriers come up see through and it feels like something is missing. Any ideas? I know SP but I don't think an attack would scare my cat so bad like this.
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