Could This Be My Guardian?

This time round, my story is a good one.

I was 17 at the time (7 years ago now), my parents were away on a 2 week break and I was staying at home with one of my brothers. During the first week I started to become really unwell, stomach cramps which were out of this world! After 48 hours of pure pain, all 3 of my brothers took me down to A&E to get checked out. It was appendicitis! They wanted to operate then and there but I'd never had an operation before, let alone have one without my Mum there, I was really scared and said I'd have it done when my parents are back. Reluctantly, they gave me some pain killers and sent me on my way. For the next week I planned to stay with my other brother and his family so that if it got worse they could get me to hospital quickly. The pain was easing, it wasn't half as bad as what it was originally but I had to keep rested and not move around to fast otherwise it would aggravate it.

One afternoon, my sister in law, nieces and nephew went out and left me lying on the sofa watching TV. It wasn't long before my eyes were relaxing and I was slowly drifting off into a slumber. I was at that point between awake and sleep when I heard my name being called. "Alice". It was short and quiet and came from by my head. I opened my eyes and thought I'd just fallen asleep and started dreaming so I closed my eyes again but as soon as I did I heard it again. "ALICE"! It was much louder this time but coming from the other side of the room. I glanced towards the doorway where I heard it coming from and there was this outline of a small person. It was golden in colour and almost had a kind of sparkle to it. Straight away, judging by the height of it I knew it was a child but I couldn't tell if it was a girl or a boy. I wasn't scared, I felt an immense amount of love and peace around me - I just watched as the sparkles faded into nothing. I've never felt peace like it, it was tranquil, quiet and I wanted nothing more than this feeling to stay with me.

I started to watch TV again (still lying on the sofa) and ended up drifting, eyes opening and closing and feeling very relaxed. Now, I must have closed my eyes and fallen asleep but was still aware of everything around me. I had this warm rush come over me, it was that feeling of love and peace again so I opened my eyes and in front of me was a lady tucking me in. I didn't see her face as she was leaning over me, I could only see her wavy brown-ish hair drooped forward, a creamy white top she was wearing and a gold pendant dangling in front of me. When my brain registered that this isn't right because I'm meant to be home alone - I then opened my eyes and she was gone. It was so strange, I thought I'd already opened my eyes but the whole time my eyes were shut and I could see her and the room around me still, even the TV! When everything had sunk in, I then become overwhelmed with a feeling of déjà vu and it was like I had a flash back to when I was a toddler. I literally felt like I flew in reverse through time and was sitting in my cot playing with a musical nightlight toy I once had, I would have been about 2 or 3. Sitting in my cot, I looked over to the corner of my old room and saw the same lady sitting in the corner with a guitar, playing along to the nightlight music. This was a memory I'd once had and long forgot about. It truly did happen, I remember now her being there quite often, she was there while I went to sleep as a toddler.

I realise this lady has been with me for a long time and I'd love to know who she is, I don't know where to start looking if I'm honest. I don't know if she's my guardian or if she's a relative that passed long ago. I'd love to see her again though. I'm not sure about who the child is either but I'm sure they're being looked after.