Most people who read this will remember my story about the incident at the river... well, this is just one of the recurring encounters that I have in my bedroom every night without fail.
Every night, when I get into my room to sleep, (which I never really get a chance to do) I will always find something that I keep on a top shelf sitting in the middle of my bed. After I put it away and lay down, I'll start hearing what sounds like whispers. I can never really tell what they're saying, but every now and again, I hear my name being mentioned, like a group of people are talking about me or something. I have a habit of lifting my head slighting and opening my eyes a little, just to check and make sure nobody is standing there and I'll always see four shadowed figures at the end of my bed staring at me. If I try to open my eyes all the way and stare at them head on, they disappear, so I've learned to watch them out the corner of my eye.
They continue speaking and looking at me like they are trying to decide what to do. At this point, I usually get a really bad feeling that whatever they decide, it isn't going to be in my best interest, but I make myself lay there and wait, thinking, every night, maybe something will change. When they seem to make up their mind, the one standing directly opposite to me will reach out and grab my ankles. And yes, I can feel hands gripping me, then I feel the shadow start to pull me down the bed towards it and when another shadowed figure, who I can never notice beforehand, no matter how hard I try, suddenly will lean over me and start to whisper angrily at them.
They always let me go, and they always disappear after that. If anybody has any idea what I should do, or whatever these things might be, please let me know because it is starting to drive me a little nuts. Other things happen after that, like footsteps and hisses, and it has gotten to the point where I've started to sleep in my parent's room with my mom the first half of the night, just to get some sleep.
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Waking from slumber and before reasonable and typical waking time, I lay partially on my side but more on my stomach with my face slightly into the pillow. In the darkness with minimal lighting from differing kinds of illuminating electronics from different rooms, I felt a presence at the foot of my bed.
I have picked-up tactics over the years on how to work with stressors--anywhere from a psychological perspective but also to a spiritual approach.
Psychologically, I've become well-practiced in beginning with acknowledging the problem. Next, I decipher if it interferes with my normal or everyday well-being and functioning. If it does, then I know that I am able to thus create a healthy boundary. Separating myself from taking-in the fear that comes from this, in my case--malevolent shadow person--helps me to know that as with any antagonist in my living life, I do not need to be drawn into whatever someone else's negativity is all about.
Spiritually, in this scenario in regards to something that is really seemingly out of my control--I thus apply things that I've learned and grown-up with. I've learned very common and widely-known prayers, like The Lord's Prayer (used by Catholicism and also known as the "Our Father" prayer) and even The Hail Mary. Both recite in repetition thanks and praise to--call it--"a higher power."
Personally, I turned easily with my belief system to help from my "higher power." With some confidence in strength that these repetitions can provide me, I was able to then return soundly to my slumber.
As a side-note, while my church holds some strange notions that state a lack of acceptance of me due to a part of my identity, I remain steadfast in what its religion was originally founded upon--love and acceptance of all humanity. No one's going to knock me down--not my birth-assigned faith and not any negative crap whether it's from the living or even the non-living.