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Nanja
 
2013-03-13
Denmark
 
Ghost Stories from Nanja

The Creature Lying Next To Me on 2013-03-26

A year ago me and my husband bought an old house in the northern part of our country. It is an old farmhouse, which the previous residents completely redid. There is a large piece of land which was used as agricultural land (animals, fruit trees). This plot is more and more transformed into a garden...

Last 20 posts from Nanja
Hej,

It has been a while ago. A lot has happened.

That night I slept at the house of my friend in the village. She went the next day with me to help pack. There was a mood of despair and anger in the house when I was busy with my bags. She felt it also. Without her I would have not been able to. It was scary.
I went to my parents.
Since then I have, besides crying a lot, went to work to arrange my life. I have a new job, and next week I get the keys to an apartment.

I did not go back to the house. I must again return to give instructions to the movers. My brother goes with me then. I do not want to be alone there anymore.
Folke and I are in divorce proceedings. It causes me much grieve. The house will go for sale.

I still do not know what was and is happening there. It has been a crazy time. I do not know if I ever understand. I just know I want control of my life back.

Thank you for your support. It was very nice. But I hope I never have to need it again.

Nanja
I do not know how to start this post. Everything feels unreal.

Folke was here. He had to talk to me now. I gave him no possibility to avoid it.

He has not been honest. Completely not. We moved to live here. He started after the first few weeks to doubt everything, his job, our marriage. He doubted he married too early. He felt wanted to see more of the world. He said he felt restless. He found no rest in his life, and not at home. He did not say anything to me. He did not want to hurt me. He says it was not my fault too.

At work he meeted another woman. He changed jobs to be more time with her. He thought he could ride out the affair. Not wanting to lose me. But it all take a lot of time. He does not want to say goodbye to her. He took his stuff in the car and now he is away. I am alone now, again, but now it is more reality.

It is very difficult to write. It seems like it is more a truth in that way. I hate him and I love him. I feel so stupid. I have not thought of this. I can not believe it. I do not know what to do. I feel like I am in a crazy dream. I trusted, so stupid. All the months I was left and just waiting waiting waiting. All the hope and his lies. How could it just happened, I did not see? How could he do this to me?

I am going to a friend in the village, drinking wine together. I do not want anymore to think today. I do not know why I am posting this. I go now.

Nanja
Hej,

I just arrived home. It was nice when I stepped in the garden. It is so beautiful here. It felt like air hugged me. Could he have missed me? It feels nice. It is nice to be missed. Folke will come in a few hours. I hope everything will be good.

Nanja
No, no, Folke is not home now. He is until the end of this week in Norway. I will go back home at the end of the week. But it is nice to get to be away. Like I am on a pause.

Folke told me yesterday that maybe the holiday in august will not go through. I have had enough. It is been months for him not to be there for me. I told him that we need to talk. It is all not like we had planned. We bought this house together to share together. Now often he is not even there, and when he is he is so distanced.

I know not why he wanted to have this new job. It was not necessary. It must be different from now.

When I left the house. It felt heavy. Just as I was under water? The feeling was gone a few kilometers later. I just had to go. The situation as it was I could handle, was even nice (to have him in the garden and to have this connection), but the additional messing to my hand and fingers in the night. It is just too much.

Sorry...

Nanja
Hello,

I have managed to get away. I do not have much taken. The most important and the small harp. It was very difficult. All my movements felt heavy.

I am with my parents. It is nice. It is nice to sleep without earplugs and without someone playing to your fingers.

It is not as nice as home, but everything feels more easy. I let Folke know where I am. But I have had enough. Of both.

Valkricry, thank you for the reply. I do not have a depression, luckily. When I had stayed, maybe I would get one.

Nanja
Hej,

I am very sorry that nobody has a answer. I know it is a old story for you. For me it is not old, but is now.
I think I need to leave here. I want to. But I do not succeed. Every time I try to fill my suitcase I get distracted and so fail to finish that day. It was tuesday like that, and yesterday too, and now today. I feel as if a iron is around my heart.

Any word of ease.
Thank you.

Nanja
Hej,

Tonight I woke up from my own tears. I was not happy in my dream. I felt someone holding my hand. I know who it was. It was very weird. I did not dare move. I have not done my eyes open. I woke up in the morning, so I fell asleep again. I have thinked all day on this, also at work. Everything feels wrong. I feel very uneasy. What should I do?

Thank you

Nanja
Hello,

Valkricry, that is very friendly of you.
It is not because I am alone in question. I have two good friends in the area. I talk to them. It is more easy, because in Dansk. However, it is different, friends are nice, but is not the same as a husband.

Folke was home this weekend. I had looked at other jobs for him, more closer, but he did not like that.
He wants to do it himself. I just wait for august, two weeks together. Hopefully it will be good.

Thank you. It is very friendly.

Nanja
Hej,

I tried, but he will not listen. He says he can not use the extra burden. So I am sweet when he is home, and cry when he is away. I do not understand. I have known him for so many years, from when we were kids.
He never found his work more important than our happiness. He is at a distance, still more so. I will wait for august. I do not know what else to do.

I am sorry to trouble you. This relationship problem is no paranormal thing.

Nanja
Hello,

BadJuuJuu, thank you. It is good advice.
We had made plans to go somewhere in july. But he said last week that it will be august. The project he is working on will take longer. I have insisted very strongly to go somewhere more early, but he does not have time. It feels that, that I am not important to him. I can only wait and hope things go better.

Nanja
Hej,

We live in a way isolated between two villages, no direct neighbours. 10 minutes by car to one village and 30 minutes to the other village.

I was home alone in the morning on my name day. I do not know who could put the flowers there. Maybe it was a person. I do not know. There was no card. Normally people come to the main door. There is a gate in the backgarden that goes to the forest. The flowers were not bound together, but braided.

It is not nice with Folke. I feel like there is a wall between us. I do not know him.

Nanja
Hej,

I am back to give a update. It has not changed here. The earplugs still work well. I have not seen him thus. I am not awake in the night. I dare not sleep without them. It is all invisible. It is better in a way.

But not completely invisible. Things are happening.
Like, last week was my name day. In the morning I found a bunch of wild flowers at the back door.
They were not from Folke. He was not home. I think it was from him. He now gives offerings to me?
It is nice in a way to have someone nearby. Folke is so often away. When I am alone in the garden, I speak against him. As a kind of diary. I have never had the patience for a diairy, it is nice.
It feels as if he is listening. Folke is always so absent, even when home. I feel I can not talk to him anymore, very much stressed. I still hope that he will soon get another job, and everything will be as it was in the past.

Nanja
Hej,

Saille, thank you for the reply. Your words always make me feel easy about this unusual and weird situation.

Nanja
Hej,

Merlyn, if he ated it than he liked it. You wrote he does not eat? The cake was ok, not very special.
Folke is away each week for a few days, sometimes half a week. He is more often away now. And when he is home, he works a lot.

I do not know if he is still next to me. I have earplugs now. I do not hear him snore, so I do not wake up. But I believe he is still next to me.

Nanja
Hello!

Valkricry, yes, that was what I mean. I have checked if I saw something from people. Whether there was a human there. In the garden we have no difficult fences. It could be. But I could not find anything.

I will not give a spoon again, just the dish.

I like that I can come here to talk and question about this. I do not have a person I can do this to against.

Thank you.

Nanja
Hello!

I found the dish back with the spoon on it. The dish was empty and clean. I found the dish back in another part of the garden. I have not seen any ants.

Thank you that you still want to help me. This is an old story for you. But for me still very nice that I get help. And can talk about it.

Valkricry, thank you. I thought it was a nice story. And it was a sweet gesture that you did. And also a very polite man.

Nanja
Hello,

Yes, it goes better with Folke. He feels better in the house and in the garden, much better actually. A very quick improvement.
But happy, I do not know. I hope that he will be home more often now, he is often away. He works very hard. I miss him very much. I hope that he will soon find another job. I hope it goes better soon.
I am not lonely. I have a lot of warm contacts in the nearby villages, because of my work.
When I am sad, I go into the garden. I always get a very warm feeling, like I am very welcome. I think he does this. I like to have him in the garden.

So he eats with his hands? Ok.

Thank you

Nanja
Hello!

Thank you for all the advice. Folke feels better. A few days ago he was reading a book in the evening. I saw that he had forgotten to pull the curtains closed. This had never happened. Also in the garden he is doing very good. I hope now that Folke will be more at home. He works very hard.

I do not really do offerings, just a little. A few days ago I baked an applecake. I put it in the garden on a dish with a piece of cake. But not with a cakefork. I did not know if there was iron in it. I put a little wooden spoon. But is it necessary? Does he use it?

In the night it is better. I bought earplugs. Now I hear no more snoring and I can sleep. I also have no more need for light. I know where the "monster" is. Maybe is there a way I can tell him to not sleep there? It is weird and yes, boundaries are broken. I do not want to make him angry. Maybe I can keep it like this? Is this not bad?

Thank you again

Nanja
Hello,

Saille, thank you for the explanation about the plans. It is clear to me now. About the offerings, I will follow my 'gut'.

It is good to know that he is benign. I read some things about fae, and not all are benign.

Hotrod, it is not friendly to try to scare me in silence. I do not live in a dictatorship.

About the stables. It is interesting to think I am sleeping in his bedroom? But he would also wake up next to a man because Folke sleeps there too, when he is home. And the previous residents too.

Pjod, this could be. We do come from a city, but Folke lived before that in a village, not as small as here, but not a city.

I talk to him every day in the garden. I am waiting. When I see change I will let you know. Folke has been away a lot lately, so I have not been able to see.

Thanks for the advice.
Do not fight.

Nanja
Hello,
Touch him? No no, I had questions about the plans, how that works, and if he is really there, but if he is, and you say so, Saille, then I leave it at this.

I do not mind when I am in the garden to talk to him. I do not see him then, so it seems more distanced. But at night, no touches, no talking. He is already too close. Yes, Hotrod, I have no fear, but I think it is weird. He needs not be there, I wrote that in the beginning.

I am confused on the offerings. Should I do that or not? I got the feeling in the garden that it was not needed, but I do not want to make him angry.

Nanja