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2015-05-08
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I am a 25 year old Asian male. I only mention my race because not many people may know what my ethnicity (Mien) is, let alone heard of it. Please feel free to ask me about my culture, or even research it yourself. I, myself, don't know much of our history. What I do know, I'll be more then happy to share.
I'm a logical and rational guy, but given my life experiences I learned from a very young age that there is more than what meets the eye.
 
Ghost Stories from callmeD

What Am I on 2017-01-05

It's been awhile since I last visited this page. Let me start by asking what I am, or rather, who I am suppose to be. You see, the last year has been a year of self reflection. Needless to say the more I learned about myself, the more questions arise. For as long as I can remember, I've always be...

My Biggest Regret on 2015-10-07

Initially, "CHILDHOOD CURSE," was going to be the only story I post. Though it seems the community on YGS has taken an interest on the rest of my life. I do not know how to feel about it. Whether to feel flattered, inspired or otherwise, I have decided to post another one of my ongoing brushes with ...

Childhood Curse on 2015-05-11

This will be my first time telling my story to people other than my close family (those whom I lived with and grew up with). Even then it took me well over 10 years to tell them of my experiences. You guys can call me D, I'm Mien. The only reason I feel this is worth mentioning is because of our...

Last 20 posts from callmeD
Date: 2017-01-09
Mazza,
To quote... Take power from a word, and the word will be your prison. You've got a talent and such is your fate; but what you do with it will determine your destination. Be who you are - not who you say yourself to be, but who you are.

Beautifully written.

Tweed- projecting my emotions onto others. I've thought of this. Majored in psychology wanting to be a psychologist. Thanks, and I take no offense. I'm not here looking phasing for answers I want to hear. Just thought I'd come and share my experience and gain insight.
Date: 2017-01-09
Ravajane, thank you for the link.
As I mentioned above I recently saw the show the OA on netflix. It talked about near death experiences too.
I don't remember going to any place, smelling anything or seeing anyone. I just remember my vision blurring, the world around me fading in bright white. Not a light, not darkness.
I remember distinctly the feeling of euphoria.
Date: 2017-01-09
Brokentree,
My jaw literally dropped when you said I can make myself less shiny.
That's exactly what adoptive father did for himself when he was in his thirties. They did a ceremony that according to our culture ward ourselves from spirits. There's a light, like a beacon on our forehead that attracts spirits, demons or otherwise. And said eventually I'll need to so the same ceremony...
I just don't want them to waste anymore money on me to try and figure out or get rid of whatever it is that's following me...
Date: 2017-01-09
Kikigirl,
Thank you. I try to do the same. Just living and letting things happen as they do.

Temelicious, I read your profile and you describe yourself as a dreamer... I absolutely loved that wording. I wish I can have clarity of what I am.
I dream of family members, of strangers... Some with messages some leaving a faint smell behind. Others I can't seem to remember for days to weeks.
I can also feel emotions from people... And I think people instinctly gravitated towards me because of this and confide in me.
Date: 2017-01-09
Tweed, I'm on board with you about near death experiences and the connection to "gifts"

I don't claim to have abilities or having obtained it through near death experiences.

The only thing I know for sure is when I died, or before I blacked out and flatlined I remember the feeling of peace and euphoria. That taste of pure calm... I hope to replicate sometime during my lifetime

Recently I saw The OA on netflix. A show a friend recommended me watching and it angered me in a way no show has ever lol.
Date: 2017-01-08
Wow, thank you all for the overwhelming support and feedback. Sorry it took me so long to reply back and apologies if I don't get back to everyone on a timely manner. I'm currently on my phone.
Special thanks to Temilcious.
It's hard for me to call this a gift or a curse. I've always tried to remain logical and as rational as possible.
I try and ignore it and live as normal as possible. I've been so good at it the last few years that the shadow I use to see standing outside my room door doesn't bother me as much anymore. It's still there but I could care less about it. I've grown to not fear death, nor the supernatural or spirits, ghost demons whatever it is you want to call these entities. I've conditioned myself since childhood that if anything wanted to harm me it would do so.
I've been scared emotionally and mentally many times before, a couple I've never fully recovered from, but never did an experience left a physical mark on me until the last dream of being dragged into the water. (My worse fear is drowning).
It's funny... I don't know much of my culture, we are slowly dying. I know the very little of the spiritual culture, and even less of the history. Much like my family. I've always associated my family life with my racial background. Both of which I know much about.
Our culture isn't written down, but all our rituals and ceremonies are in the form of calligraphy.
The little I do know about my biological family is my father was a disgrace in the community. Adulterer, whom lied about his position in the village, claiming he was a shaman with great healing abilities.
He's has this reputation follow him from Laos to thailand and to the United states. I don't know about his parents or grandparents. But all my blood siblings claim they can see shadows or have a sense things follow them around.
This is probably another reason why I don't want to believe I have a gift or curse because I want nothing to be anything like them.
But all of what I've experienced has been so pronounced and exaggerated from everything they claim to be able to see and do, it's hard to turn a blind eye.
Though I don't know much of my culture both set of families adopted and biological are very spiritual. My adoptive family are held in very high regards amongst the 12 clans of our culture. My adoptive dad, son of the head shaman of our clan... Tries to reassure me that what I've experience has logical explanations... We try to explore all natural reasonin gs before jumping to the supernatural.
I know deep inside he's afraid. He knows I can see his fears but bless him for being my backbone. We tried numerous ceremonies to help appease whatever this curse or gift may be but all it does is subdue it for a few months a time.
I remember speaking with rook through email after my first story. He mentioned sages and a protection ward. I've never tried it, we tried Greek ceremonies, Christian ceremonies, taoSim and Buddhism. None seem to work.
Date: 2017-01-06
I'm just glad I'm not the only one. Seems we have a lot in common. Feeling what others feel, is kind of like invading their privacy. I don't like to do that. How have you been dealing with it?
Date: 2017-01-05
I'm in a better place now. First time I can say that in a very long time. Thanks for your very kind words.
I just try to ignore it as much as possible. It sucked to be called the devil by family.
I don't believe in God. But I do believe in ditties and angels and demons.
Date: 2015-10-20
Manner- thank you. Although I don't feel I'll ever be the same person again. After going through that, it's kind of scarred me in so many ways. But as of now, I'm actually recovering from an injury, working and studying to be an emt. Killing time before I can try to reenlist.
Lady glow- sorry I forgot to answer your previous question... I wasn't the first to have this spirit latch onto. There has been quite a few before me though I don't know the exact number. I was told after the ceremony, they helped the spirit cross over. So I guess there's a light at the end of the tunnel
Date: 2015-10-20
Valk- she was to the left of my. We were coming up on a bend and I make its a habit of mine to survey my environment. As we we turning the corner, everything happened in slow motion. It was pretty surreal. I wasn't afraid nor panicked, more so in shock than anything else. It's just one of those instances where you glimpse at something for no reason other then just to wander and something happens.
National guard will be my last resort, but ultimately I want to go active. Majority of my family is air force. A few army.
Biblo- I recall getting into an altercation with one of my airmen but nothing physical. Things could have escalated if I didn't seek a chaplain for a reprieve. Unfortunately everything is documented from the day I started the recruitment process.
Lady glow- I apologize if our animal sacrifices offend you. I can see how it's a sensitive subject. Trust me when I say nothing goes to waste.
Chap- I've never thought of that, I'll have to look into that. Though, I doubt it's mold. I was the only one in our dorm and in my house to experience this. But I'll look at every Avenue.
Date: 2015-10-19
Oh, as the violations or being written up. I was demoted a couple times from job duties while at boot camp and was threatened military jail for any physical contact with any individual.
Date: 2015-10-19
Lady glow. The spirit was attached to me but there were also remnants lingering onto the stuff in my backpack. I guess she wanted me to bring in as little of it as possible.
Thank you biblo for the brief intro of my religion to lady glow.
No, unfortunately boot camp was made for change and I guess people around boot camp either didn't know me yet or expected change from any array. But my family and friends did. They'd show me letters I'd had to recollection of sending.
There were numerous accounts of me "blacking out" when I got back. I've lost count, but it plagued me for the better part of the 6 months. The scariest thing was at times I can see what I'm doing and hear what I'm saying but I have no control over them. Other times I just have vague memories replay back.
Just adding my two cents. Animal sacrifices isn't always a sign of black magic or evil.
Date: 2015-10-07
Rook, I see where you're coming from. My mother stopped going to see her. My dad's sister on the other hand, went to see her a couple months ago. I think the Gypsy was legit. I have no qualms with anyone trying to use their gift to make a quick buck or two. I was rather upset though that her Twigs weren't as advertised lol.

I didn't have a cast, though I didn't think I needed one. It was a broke bone and a torn ligament. I didn't know it was broken until a week and a half after. Which by the time the worse of the pain has already came and went.
Date: 2015-10-06
Hey rook, great hearing from you again. No need to apologize for the rant. I appreciate you, and anyone else, taking the time to read my comments and posts.
From my understanding, my mom and aunt went to see her sparodically throughout the course of the ten years. My mom goes to accompany my aunt not for herself. More so as a support for my aunt. She sought the gypsy out of desperation. I can be wrong, my mother is, very open about me being adopted but neither she nor my aunt knew how I felt about being adopted and how I felt about myself or,life.
I had my doubts about the bird nest actually working. I only did it to make my mom happy. Coincidentally there was a brief moment of peace intially.
Thanks, I have a whole new appreciation for walking now after breaking my leg. Been closer to 5 months and I can barely jog.
Date: 2015-10-06
Princess, biblo and rook.
Hello all, sorry for the late comments and replies. I've been rehabbing a broken leg and that's been taking up most of my time. (Playing basketball, nothing paranormal related...maybe)
Rook. I'm a pure skeptic until I've been proved orherwise. The gypsy didn't generalize much. She was pretty forth coming. My mom and aunt has been seeing her for close to 10 years now. The way she touched on my inner most emotions made me a believer. Though she did make us pay, a chunk might I add, my mother believed it'll help and that was reason enough for me to give it a shot. Might it be a coincidence I found peace for a short period ir a direct result from the birds nest looking thing I don't know. I do know that it was not permanent. I haven't tried your cleansing. I don't think I will unless it gets desperate. No offense, I mean that with the utmost respect. Blblo and cute princess, thank you guys. No offense taken. The gypsy, I don't believe she could cast away spirits although I do believe she has the ability to tell someone's past as she did mine.
Date: 2015-05-20
Thank you all for your kind words.
Oh and about the curse
Biblo - the gypsy just stated the curse was specifically directed at me.
Date: 2015-05-20
Mien people practice taoism. We are very in tuned with nature and spiritualism. Sorry I'm not making much sense right now as I'm at work and on my phone.
Iu-Mien (h) or yaos are originally from China, but migrated throughout east and southeast Asia. Think Thai and Hmong and Chinese intertwined, probably the best summary if us Mien people.
Date: 2015-05-20
Sorry, I didn't mean any ill will towards the site or admin. I just wanted to get some answers and opinion on what it is I'm experiencing. My biological family are manipulative, deceitful people. That sounds very mean for me to say but it's what I've observe in my 25 years of existence. They have a reputation in the Mien community of being as such, and it took me a long while to believe in those judgements. Yes, it might have took a toll on my adopted mother for me to be comfortable le in both families, but it tore a hole in me forever. Just this year I started to reconcile my feelings towards the way I was treated from both families. My biological family, parents and siblings used me for their financial gains, and only called me at their convinense. I did not see this when I was younger, but as I grew older I started picking up the subtleties. Theyd stare me down as if I was a stranger when I'm over their house. Scrutinize my every move, though my twin was doing the exact same thing they were accusing me of doing (I.e drugs and drinking alcohol and cutting school). Of course I didn't do any of this, it was just their way of justifying me not being their son. At least this is the conclusion I came up with. So, no. I haven't talked to them about what the gypsy said. I haven't kept in touch with them as much since I was hospitalized and literally on my death bed from food poisoning some 6 years ago. They didn't come Visit me or call to see if I were okay. Only about a couple months later did they call me to go to help one of my older brothers move out since I had a truck.
I love my family, whether they treated me as such or not. It's ingrained in my DNA. But I just learned throughout my life that it's best if I limited my interactions with my blood family.
As for my adopted family, they couldn't have been more the polar opposites. These parents were sought for guidance and support by the community. Great standings with the Mien community as my father was part of the Council. He retired just two years ago giving up his seat. I learned compassion and understanding from them. Not to past judgement as we all have a story and reasons behind what we do.
My father's step siblings and mother look up to him and revere him, but they do not show him the same affection as they show to their own full blood kin. I remember distinctly growing up, I was excluded from family outings involving my cousins and aunts and uncles.
I grew up wanting to please everyone. Wanting to just fit in. And while all this was happening I didn't tell anyone cause I didn't want another reason for anyone to think I was anymore different then what I was already made out to be from both sets of family.
Date: 2015-05-19
Outofbox thanks, sorry to hear that. I'd like to thank you all for welcoming me and not thinking I'm a lunatic. I'd also want to thank rook whether he sees this or not.