Cover Tossing And Paralysis

When I was much younger than I am now, we had a spirit living with us. Sometimes when I would fill the dog bowl with food at 5:30 every day as part of my chore and fathers strict rules I had to obey, upon entering the kitchen with dog bowl in hand, the closet door holding the animals valued bag of dog food would open on its own accord. It made its self visible quite often and the overall experience was a pleasant one. I only got scared a few times, but mostly due to not knowing what was going on.

Later we had to move from the house and I have had 0 encounters with anything for over a decade.

I am now living in an apartment with a wife and new son. My wife was complaining that sometimes the baby swing would move of its own accord or things in the kitchen would fall while she was in the shower or watching T.V.

We went out of state for a few days for Thanksgiving vacation to have good times with family and relax and she stayed out of state to see her family for a bit more. She has grown quite homesick in our new place.

Two nights ago I got home for the first time in five or so days and tiredly checked my email, dragged in all of my packed belongings and went to sleep trying to get ready for Mondays work.

During the course of the night, around 3:30am I woke out of my slumber absolutely terrified. It was fast and I was fully alert and all I knew was something was not right. I tried to call for help but all I could muster was a whisper. I couldn't talk or move.

I have only felt this way once. Between the ages of roughly 3 and 8 years of age I would have a dream. I would be in a fire lit hut. I could hear the fire and saw the roof of the structure looked that of mud and hay. Eventually, I would start to rise towards the roof, and once I reached the top, I would awaken the exact same way. Paralyzed and helpless. Most terrified and scared.

I got the feeling when I awoke suddenly that I was not alone. After a few minutes I could move again and just rolled over and pulled the covers tightly around me. While trying to relax my mind and tell myself things were going to be okay and I just need to get some rest, I got a fast and hard tug from my back pulling the covers. It hurt my neck a little from the force that was applied. I felt the tug and had time to think about it and was about to turn around when I found myself paralyzed again.

After a small piece of time I mustered a word, my name, just to see if I could talk. Satisfied that I could, I just turned on my back and watched the ceiling wondering why I was getting so scared. I hadn't felt this in ages, and I was awake, why am I feeling this? The paralysis came and went for a while. I just lay there helpless just wanting it to stop.

Finally I got about 10 minutes of peace and started to think things were going to be okay. It had passed.

Suddenly all of my covers were thrown to the foot of the bed. It was about 4:30am by this time, and I wanted to run. That's what I did when I was younger. Just ran outside and waited for my parents to get home. It is strange to think back then I was a much (or a little) more brave than I am now.

I wanted lights on, but did not want to risk moving out of fear of what would happen from my bed to the lights. I knew something was in there. I wanted to try and talk but I didn't. I lay there frozen as a statue until the sun came up at about 7am. From 4:30 to 7am nothing happened.

Satisfied I could see, I cautiously arose from the bed. I asked whatever was there to please not do that again, as it scared me half to death and with all of my work I cannot afford to be kept up all night. I stated if it needs help, I will, and if not to kindly leave.

I suppose I write this because I have no idea what to do. I am now sleeping in the living room with all of the lights and T.V. On. I have been reading here the past few days and most agree it is good to not give into fear. I think the paralysis is my response to that fear. Any way to get rid of it?

I feel since this is twice I have had strange encounters, and the first encounter lasting around 10 years, I need to learn how to take a stand and react. Any/All suggestions most welcome. Thank you for your time.