I don't know how haunted this is, and people who haven't read the last story I put up may not know all of what I'm talking about, but here goes. Around last month, I've been having these dreams, the same sort of dreams I've always had. But, they've begun to have a different twist. Before I explain that, I have to say that they are tied in to these other dreams I've had. In these dreams, there's something about blood on my hands.
This dream I thought was a reoccurring dream, I have had it several time, always on my birthday, sometimes between, if that means anything. It's me, being dropped off by my parents at this house, where there's and old lady who is supposed to take care of me. But, she wants to hurt me, so I have to run away. The house is full of all these hidden ways to run, so I always manage to get away, and make it into the attic, where she can't follow. I'm not sure why she can't, only she isn't allowed somehow. There's always something covered by a blanket in the corner, and I always wake up before I lift it.
So, I thought, just your typical dream right? Clearly some sort of way of my mind trying to get me to figure out what I want, by not showing me. Then, the dream changed. I was no longer me, but some other girl, blond, young, hurt. And she/I was the one running from the old lady. I (or, me being the blond) was dressed in this white dress, lying in the dirt. Then we had to run. And there was the chant about the blood on my hands, and I'm not sure what happened, but I woke up, gasping.
That's another thing for me now, I don't wake up screaming, I wake up gasping. Which is much better than before.
So, I sat down with my brother, discussing this, and the possibility that this was somehow connected to my other dreams. The dream with being told to go back to the beginning, the blood on my hands. Then, it sort of clicked with me. The reason my spirit/ghost thing (which is this man I've been dreaming about since I was 15, who I have conversations with in my sleep, who I believe is some sort of spirit, or at the very least no longer human) said to go back to the beginning, he was telling me to go there, back to the first dream I can remember having, that left with the same sort of feeling as one of the screamers (what I call the dreams that wake me up screaming).
I think this girl was there, in that house, and the old woman did something to hurt her, and maybe this girl did something back to her, killed her, or hurt her. That would explain the blood on the hands bit, and maybe why the old lady can't go into the attic.
Maybe I'm grasping at straws, maybe it does all tie together. But, the fact is, I've tried communicating with spirits, and all it left me was a headache. Probably because I'm doing it wrong. But, in my dreams is different.
I guess I need to learn to talk to the things I see, to communicate. Because seeing someone who no one else can see, and you can't figure out how to talk to, does not do much to assure you of your sanity.
Either way, I plan to find this house that I've dreamt about. I think it will hold all the answers. I have no clue where to start, and I'm waiting for spring or summer break to try, so I'll have time to find it. I've been researching haunted houses, but nothing seems to lead me anywhere.
So, what I want to know, is it safe to try to find a place like this? My brother says he's coming with me to 'protect' me from any bad spirits. I don't think there's much a living person can do, and I think for the most part, spirits don't want to hurt us.
Is this making any sense? Should I go? Or is it just a waste of time? I need help deciding.