Back in 1977, my father went in the hospital Jan 25, he died of cancer in the hospital Feb 25. The night before he died, I had this very strong chill to go up my spine. The feeling never happened before and never happened again. I looked at my mom and said MOM I HAVE TO GO THE HOSPITAL NOW to see dad, she said it is way to late. My father died that night. The next day my uncle told me my dad was screaming my name, demanding I come to him that instance. I feel so bad I did not go.
The next 30 days was very weird. I would walk down the street and in the distance I felt he was there. I was never close to my dad, except when I was little, and we were always in a conflict, starting at age 12. My parents divorced when I was a teenager, and being he and my mom had such a bad marriage and he was always hitting her. After he left he came back to the house a few times. I could not talk to him as a parent, I was scared of him, and tried to make him in something of a good man in front of my friends. I mean I tried to make him into something he was not, but I always had this love for him.
Well, anyway on Feb 25, I was laying in my bed, and thought I seen something in the window, which we lived a few stories up. Knowing nothing could be there, I went off to sleep, and all of a sudden I went rushing up the clouds in this very strong powerful wind. My dad was standing close to a rock, and looked at me and said I am here to preach the word of GOD. I reached out and tried to grab him, I was pushed back in a very strong powerful wind towards the clouds.
The next morning, I woke up and my mom was in the kitchen. I walked in and she had this stare on her face and was stirring her coffee. I asked her if she was ok, and she looked at me and said, Your dad was here last night, I first heard him in the hallway, and I heard you and him talking. I was like OMG mom, you are right he was here!
The reason I am writing this story now, is because after all these years, I figured how the words he said, I could hear his voice tonight, he first said, baby I am here, I told you I would come to visit, I am so sorry I could not be a good dad, I want you to know I LOVE you and will always be here with you, please forgive me, I love you so much!
My mom died about 15 years ago, I wonder why I never had a visit with her? She was my best friend, I miss my mom, and I love her so much.