My first experience with this entity was when I was young, maybe around 5-6yrs old and this is the most substantial of experiences because it was like sleep paralysis but I was standing up...
I was in my father's kitchen and I remember he and my little brother were playing; my dad was trying to teach him how to ride a tricycle. I was walking opposite of them heading toward the back of the kitchen, I remember when I got to the centre of the room I was suddenly unable to move any further, I got very cold and couldn't move anything. I turned my eyes toward the bathroom which was off the kitchen to the right of me, it was pitch black in there and then something started walking out, it was humanoid in build but was covered in brownish/black hair, had tall ears, it was tall in stature too and kind of hunched over. It walked straight and in a slow gate, it walked until it was dead ahead of me and stopped and then just starred at me. I couldn't quite make out a face I just knew it was starring at me. A very intense feeling of dread, fear and cold came over me, it never made an attempt to hurt me physically but it seemed to be the source of these sudden feelings and I did feel malicious intent subconsciously.
I tried to speak to get my fathers and brothers attention but was unable to speak, they were literally a few feet behind me but it seemed as if for the moment I wasn't existing in our normal plane of existence and they couldn't see or understand what was going on. After what seemed like a few minutes something caused me to flinch my finger toward the wall behind the thing. After seeing me do this the thing started turning in a fearful slow like manner; my father had a picture of Jesus knocking on the door to the heart under a light directly behind where this thing was, after completely turning and seeing the picture it turned into a black smoke/vapour and disappeared through the wall.
From that time on I get vibes off of dark rooms, like something is watching me and closets seem to be a very strong spot for it to dwell, I see shadows moving out of the corner of my eyes and at night if I'm laying down with my lights off a black vapour dances in the corner of my room, I've tried ignoring it and go to sleep only to awaken paralyzed and unable to speak and during these moments it will materialize into a figure of a man and stand there starring at me and causing such a fear I feel like I might have a stroke. When the paralysis breaks it disappears, I keep the light on now but it does no good to get rid of the feeling of its presence. I guess you can call it sleep paralysis but this thing haunts me even when I'm not sleeping and I believe it uses sleep paralysis as a way to attack me. I think it wants me dead to be honest.
Talking about it and thinking about it is difficult because I start to feel very nervous and cold and get the feeling like its right behind me. I feel an internal conflict like the thing is trying to take over my soul, anxiety has gotten very bad and I'm always nervous to do anything, when I tell it in the name of Jesus to leave me alone it seems to intensify the feelings it projects onto me.
I have no idea what this thing is, people I've talked to about it seem to think it's either a malicious spirit or demon. I believe it may be a demon due to the fact it gets angry at the sound of Jesus and fearful of his image.
All of this isn't bound to one location either, I've lived in many towns throughout new York and south Carolina and still experience these things, it seems as if things are fine for awhile after moving into a new place but after awhile it comes back, like it's after me, negativity amongst the family increases as well when it comes back, I feel defeated and I can't go on with a normal life, I feel cold hearted a lot. I have a hard time feeling love for anything and I'm slowly losing my ambition to do anything and my health is diminishing, I know whatever this entity is it's definitely at the heart of it all.
Can anyone please shed some light on just what I may be experiencing?