When I was 12 or 13 years old, I already had suitor. He was our housemaid's cousin; let's just call him Raymond (I forgot his name actually). They're both from the province of Bicol. The guy was working here in Manila and I think he was 16-18 years old that time.
One day, when he visited his cousin (our housemaid, let's call her Janet) he saw me and he fell in love with me. Our housemaid introduced me to him but of course I was very young then, I did not take it so seriously and having in a relationship was still out of my mind (aside from the fact that my grandma will definitely not allow me to have boyfriend on that very young age). So then, he was always calling and visiting our house (but we never let him to go inside because my grandmom doesn't like visitors afraid that they might get bite by our dogs). So he just got used on just standing outside the house while talking to our housemaid.
When I started my school at secondary level, he did not call or visits in the house anymore (I didn't care about it that much). Our housemaid went back to Bicol and did not come back in our house. We just thought that she already got married there.
After few months, something strange happened. It was night and I went outside to buy cola for our dinner. When I was locking our gate, I saw a shadow standing in front of our house and I knew it was a man (based on his body built) and it seems like he was looking downwards. I looked at it for about a minute I guess, but he was not moving so I just shrugged it off. I went to the store and bought cola. When I came back, the shadow is already gone. I just didn't mind it.
After 2 years or so, I was 16 years old then, it was month of May. Every May, our city is having feast. I and my friends usually meet up at night to watch shows (beauty pageants, dance or singing contests) in different areas. We were on this particular place, watching dance contest, when I saw Janet! She saw me as well and we talked. She said she's still working as a housemaid in other employer. Then what she told me really shocked me a lot.
Janet asked me: "Did you know that Raymond already passed away?" I answered: "What? No I do not know anything. Why? What happened?" Janet answered me back:" He suffered from illness and it took his life". I was really shocked that I couldn't speak anymore. I felt chills on my body. Then she said: "You know what, when he was suffering on his illness, he was looking for you, he wants to see you. And until on his last breath, he was still saying your name!" I felt sad and guilty as well because I did not realized that he was really serious about me that much and did not acknowledge his attention that he was giving me.
I prayed for his soul and I hope he's in peace now.
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