I am finally taking the time to write this as I am having to deal with a spirit/ghost/demon I have no idea what it is but its back. I went several months with this entity. It started off as me thinking it was someone who just needed help. I live in a transitional living facility that helps single parents get back on their feet, and it used to be a nun convent. I figured it would have to be a nun so I was not scared of it. One instance I used the bathroom in the middle of the night and a cup fell to the floor and rolled back and forth as if someone was playing with it. That scared the crap out of me so I ran back to bed. The next day I was interested though.
I have always been interested in the paranormal and thought that if faced with an opportunity to experience it, that I would be open to it. After that incident there were so many of me waking up with my hand over my face. No matter how I fell asleep, even laying on my hand, I would wake up with my hand over my face. One time it made me so mad that I cussed at it and fell back asleep only to wake up in so much pain because I was digging my nails into my arm. Like almost to the point that I was bleeding. That really scared me. A couple of times I woke up on my back with my legs open which really freaked me out but what I noticed most of all was that everytime I would try to sleep it would POKE me. Everytime it would poke me it would scare the crap out of me and I would wake up.
I decided to start talking to it. I thought if it can move my hands and body when I am asleep, it should be able to move my head and hands when I am awake. So I started with yes and no questions. Move my head to the right is no, move my head to the left is yes. I also would pull up the keypad screen on my cell phone and it would move my hand to letters. I came up with the following. Her name was Tracy Danbury, 48 years old when died, used to work here at the convent, and died due to complications with an addiction. She called it murder. So I honestly felt like I was going to help her, my heart actually went out to her and perhaps that was a truth story but she also told me that there was a dark spirit in the building. I had asked if she could protect me from it and she said yes, but she didn't. So I am thinking either she was not real and it was the dark one all along, or the dark one just had more power then her. I am not sure, but this one came along.
He is strong. Strong enough to hold me down (it felt like electric pressure, like when your foot falls asleep pressure) He held me down and had sex with me. Several times. I would be lying if I said that it did not feel good. It felt great. Especially since I have been single for so long. But I would feel so guilty like I betrayed God everytime it would happen. Even though I couldn't move I felt like there was something I could have done about it. The first time the sex thing happened I was dreaming that I was with my ex husband. The dream felt real, I was in and out of being awake but I could feel it in me and all around my legs. My legs were tingling and when I woke up the next day I just couldn't believe what I remembered to have happened. After that I was always awake when it would happen.
I think what I find the most confusing is I have heard ghosts only come out at certain hours and only in the dark etc. But this would happen to me at all hours of the day. In the middle of the day with the sun shining through my windows. Everything that seemed to be claimed as truth has been discredited in my mind. They are around all the time, whenever they want to be. So anyways, I was raised in a Christian home and I know all the things to pray and I would always pray. It wouldn't go away. I had finally had it when I went to a birthday party for my baby nephew. It was an hour away from here and he followed me. I got really sick at my brothers and had to lay down. I couldn't believe that it had followed me.
I thought ghosts had to stay in the area where they were. I have 4 videos I recorded on my phone of this entity. I haven't found a way to link my phone to my laptop or I would because I want answers, my phone won't email them either. It is clear and it seems to have a pulse. Its electric like it shows up on my phone as like an electric something I don't know how to describe it, and it goes from clear to cloudy white. I recorded one of it moving my hand off a bible. It doesn't like me holding anything God related. Bible, rosary etc. It will remove it from me.
So I kind of got off track there. After the incident at my brothers house I was so fed up. I went to bed that night and prayed to God. I repented of all my sins and begged Him to please help me. I began to pray the prayers I knew to pray and after a night of that, it was gone. So for the past 3 nights I have had peaceful sleep and peaceful time until tonight.
It has started again. And I think I know why. You see, I have an addiction problem. I tend to take pain pills more then I need to. When I had prayed for forgiveness, I believe I was forgiven and God removed the spirit/s from me. But tonight a friend of mine gave me some pills and I took them. Not the prescribed dose, but the dose I knew would give me a buzz. I think when I did this, God removed His protection from me. Maybe I am being paranoid but I really think that's what happened. So now here I sit, I can feel it going in and out of my stomach. It feel like electric currents through my back. It wants me to go to the bed but I don't want to. My kids and I share a room here at the center so they are in their beds as I sit here at the desk with the bathroom light on. How can I pray for forgivenss when I just popped these pills. God removed His protection from me because I sinned again. Its going to be a long night. I just wish I knew what this entity wanted. I want to try and communicate but at this point am scared to.
I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I had told my brothers and they freaked out but told me to just pray and the last they heard I was ghost free so I don't want to tell them hes back. My dad wouldn't even listen to me, especially when I told him about the sex part. I wish I could understand all the levels of this world. If it was a female ghost needing help, sex wouldn't have been involved. I don't know if people can write you after reading your story but if anyone has any insight or something to say, please say it. Do you think I am right about God removing His protection from me? And so everytime I fall or sin this ghost is going to harrass me?