This is the first time when I publish my story on an website, please excuse my English, I don't know it very well. The reason why I am actually do this is because I am looking for some answers.
How to begin... So it all started when I was eleven. It was morning and suddenly I felt trap in my body. Is difficult to describe this feeling or should I called experience. But I couldn't open my eyes and my body was paralyze and in the same time I was awake. I could hear everything was happening near to me, like a coma or something and I started to hear voices, demonic voices inside my head and it felt so real. I started to panic and in the same time I was trying to get out from that state and from that day it happened to me constantly. But I am 24 now and sometimes it steel happens to me.
When I was young this thing happened pretty often but now is happening once a year or twice a year. I told some people about this and they just told me to go to a psychiatrist or they told me to go to church.
I could tell you a lot of stories of what I heard or what I felt. I with start with one of the story that I experienced. I was sleeping next to my boyfriend once and suddenly I started to hear him talking and he just couldn't stop talking. I was wondering in my mind, "What the..." I just close my eyes and he was sleeping and now he's talking alone?" It just didn't make sense but in the same time I was in that state blocked in my body but I couldn't realize is happening to me again. In the next second I just realize that is not him who is talking and in that moment I heard a big scream in my ear. I could feel the energy. I wake up immediately and you know when your ear is pressured to a big sound you here a constant "eeee..." (I am sorry I don't know how to explain in English but I hope you understand what I am trying to say.) I looked at my boyfriend and he was sleeping like a baby.
Now I what I will tell one of another experience. My mother brought me a saint icon from my grandmother who passed away (it happened a long time) and that icon is like 200 year old and is something that we give from generation to generation. She put it to my room and the moment she put that in my room I felt so strange and I couldn't sleep anymore there. I tried to sleep there for like three days but I was having a restless sleep and bad dreams. Also, every morning I wake up with bruising on my hand, on my belly and on my legs. I tried to say to my family and they listen and we just couldn't find an answer so my mother put away the icon from my room and I felt more better.
And I continue with another story. I was in that state and heard laughing angels in my head. I got freaked out and all the laughing started to sound demonic. Another story, I tried to speak in my head with the voices and they start to be more loud and more scary and I felt like I was falling infinitely.
Feel free to leave me comments and maybe by having discussions here I will find some answers. Thank you for reading.