I have always appreciated and supported efforts taken by Mughda who was a very zealous volunteer for anti superstition groups before she married and settled outside India. She is aware of my interest in paranormal and have read most of the other incidents that I have narrated in various other forums and sites. I think she was mature enough to respect opinion of others without getting her own mindset impacted and hence the friendship continued.
Majority of the cases were women who often fall prey to various psychological disorders and claim to be possessed by spirits. This is a common scenario and at times women in rural or sometime even urban India fake the possession so that they can get away from very strenuous daily chores. This also helps them to get lot of respect and gifts from others, and harassment from in-laws turns into awe, fear and respect. Challenge is to convince relatives to take the poor victim to psychiatrist. Around 90 % cases turnout to be suffering from Schizophrenia or other mental disorders.
In this particular incident I was supposed to help Mughda to take one such case to the clinic. We were going to use their group's car with the driver and mother-in-law of the patient was going to accompany her. When I reached the house , Mughda and others were trying to convince the patient to be ready for the doctor's visit. This is a usual scene and patient is always reluctant to go for the treatment. The patient ( Padma) finally relented but said since we have come to her house for the first time let her make some tea for us. It was when she was handing over the cup to me, I sensed something wrong for the first time.
It was the way she looked at me for a fraction of a second. The look faded away quickly but it was full of so much cunning and hatred that I was shaken up. It was not the face of mentally ill women. I had also come across many cases where the possession is faked and at times one can figure out the deception but this was completely different. It was more of an animal look who had sensed that someone who should not have entered its territory had done so. Something happened inside me at the same time and my ability to sense things around me was hit. To be honest, I did not realize at that time at all. We went to the doctor, the lady was examined, follow up visit was scheduled. It was after I reached my home, I suddenly felt my head clearing. Thats the time I realized that something was wrong.
When I went for the next time, I had meditated for an hour or so and was on my guard. This time the hostility was quite open and since I was prepared my nerves were not getting impacted, which was I guess making whatever was inside that lady even more furious. One more curious thing I noticed this time. On the way to the clinic there is a very famous Ganesha Temple. The driver, who has always driven on the city roads for the last 25 years, took a diversion and avoided the street. I looked at Padma and her smile said everything. At that moment I got the sensation of fear for the first time. It has happened so many times before but I have always struggled to describe it. It was as if something cold and nasty has entered inside you and a cold hand has grabbed your soul from within. This is not the kind of fear one feels when watching horror shows at night alone. It is more complete and impacts your soul not your body. One can only experience it and not describe.
The doctor's visit was not peaceful this time and there was some commotion inside the consulting room. Whatever that was inside was angry and had given up any presence of being psychologically ill women. I was not surprised at all when Mudgha and the driver came back later saying that they are not able to locate Padma as she slipped away in the corridor when Mudgha went to freshen up. I roamed around the campus, as I was sure I would be able to locate Padma somewhere. On their own possessed souls do not go for vehicles. I did find her outside one canteen looking moodily at the roles and sandwiches.
This time when she saw me she did not react. I wanted to set up conversation with what was inside her but did not know how I was going to do it. Still I held her hand and took her to a nearby bench where no one could hear us. I simply explained that this couldn't continue as I am going to suggest forced visits to all the four famous temples nearby. I may not be able to force what was inside to leave Padma but temple visits will ensure that soul protection increases and that what is inside cannot escape out. So basically an end for both the victim and the entity that has entered. I was not sure that I was understood or not, but to my surprise Padma pointed to the car and asked me to drive. I took the direction given and very soon we came on the subway that led to an old housing society for dairy farm workers. Padma asked me to stop the car, which I did. For a fraction of second there was slight vibration in the car and then Padma was back. Please note that this happened very quietly. Padma was fully aware of where she was and did not faint or anything. But at the same time her eyes were now cleared and the numbing sensation that I had was gone.
We returned back. This was one of the most cleanest and clearest experience I had. People often relate possession with ghosts of those who have died which in my opinion is not always true. God knows what else is lurking around us trying to look for a soul that it can occupy. It can be reasonable and know when to give up as this incident describes but at the same time can be very cruel, selfish and as long as its own destruction is not on the horizon, harm the body it holds. In this case Padma recovered instantly but to this date I do not know what had weakened the god give protection that every soul has. My experience is that this happens either when someone tries a sadhana that is beyond the capacity of the kundalini one holds. Perhaps there are other reasons as well. Who knows