I come from China. The story that I am posting here is not my own but my father's. I believe it's true because it's my father.
I have to go back almost 16 years. My father was caught in a car accident when he was on a business trip. He was paralyzed and couldn't walk or take care of himself in many things. He had become really sick. It has been for a hard time for him and for our family. But the focus is not misery. My father became a Christian after he got injured. He had previously had doubt because in China, most people don't have religion. But my father was changed by a single paranormal experience. He told me that one night, whilst feeling unwell with an infection; he was feeling very bad and not sleeping well. He woke up and saw there are so many people in his room. When they saw that my father had seen them, they didn't say anything but all turned around and lined in a queue towards the window. My father was too afraid to keep his eyes open. But he was sure there were people in his room. He wasn't dreaming because later that night, he couldn't sleep anymore!
The story is simple but changed our mind. That's why my father became a Christian and I started to go to church. But I am still lingering. I haven't experienced anything like that (But I have been having bad dreams). I have to admit that I do not have enough faith. I have read a lot of stories in this site, and to be frank, I have doubt. Because writing a fictitious story on line is not too difficult. There's simply no evidence. So I am doubtful most of the time. I have friends at church and they have very strong faith. I hope I can too. But I have too many things on my mind, too much desire and anxiety. And sometimes I just feel too tired. The most important thing is that I don't know my purpose any more. I can see that life is short and I know I need to make it meaningful. But I just don't have a faith. I don't have a goal. And I am doubtful of everything, even myself.
Loading comments....
