Gifted?

My name is Tesha and at the time being I am 18 years old. Turning 19 in two weeks time. My age has a little bit to do with my story. I have been having paranormal encounters since I was around 4-5 years old so my family has told me.

My sister was there when I had my first encounter, I have no memory of it but my sister sure does. One night she awoke to me talking to someone. She then heard me say 'Thats naughty, you're not allowed to smoke in here.' Being annoyed that she was woken up she told me to shut up and go back to sleep but I continued to talk. I then replied 'You scared my friend away!' As her eyes adjusted she said the room was hazy and smokey, and towards the end of the bed she noticed a small bum dent, as if someone had been sitting there. My Mother and sister talked about it and I was questioned about the appearance of my 'friend'. I described him having lightning like hair and that he was bad for smoking in my room.

That encounter I have no memory of, but the rest I do. The earliest I can remember I was around 10-11 years old, we lived in quite a old house out in the countryside. I was sitting in the lounge watching TV, my Mum was in the kitchen. When something caught the corner of my eye, a figure standing in the hallway. I turned to look and all I could see was a black sillouette in the form of a person. Even typing about it gives me the shivers. It's face wasn't really a face but you could make out the form of one. It had no eyes, just darkness. But I still felt like it was staring straight through me. It seemed like it was there for a few minutes, but I blinked and it was gone. It was one of the scariest experiences for me.

The next encounter I had I was only a little older. Around 13, my sister and I were sitting in my Mothers bedroom playing playstation when a figure walked slowly past the window. I looked at my sister, hoping she had seen it to. 'Did you see that?' She took the words right out of my mouth. We both walked into the kitchen and asked our Mum where our Step Dad was. 'In the shower' she replied. So it couldn't have been him. My sister and I swore that we saw a man in a big heavy looking coat and a cowboy style hat walk past the bedroom window.

The years that we lived in the old country house, I never felt comfortable sleeping in my bedroom. It was always so cold and I felt uncomfortable being in there for long periods of time. This would usually result in me sleeping in the living room on the couch.

Alot of family drama occured and a cousin of my Step Dad (at the time) came to stay for a week for extra support, and of course, I was more than willing to let her stay in my room. I called her Aunty Kim, a very spiritually connected person. Being able to see, talk to, listen to and sense spirits. The next morning after spending the night in my room she sat down and talked to my Mum and I. 'Now I know why you never slept in your room bub, I had some lil sh-ts running around the end of the bed poking me in the feet!' She was referring to a spirt or spirits. I was shocked, it wasn't my mind playing tricks on me, there really were spirits in my house. She explained that some spirits are drawn to old houses, and as she sat there talking to me she was trying to block out spirits speaking in her ear, randomly spatting out 'CAN YOU WAIT YOUR TURN' it freaked me out at first but got used to it the longer she was there.

Before her arrival I was diagnosed with Major Depression. I was feeling really bad and empty for unknown reasons. Then one night we sat down for a meeting, she was going to teach me how to cleanse my aura and bless me to see if it would alter my mood. But first she blessed me, she said she called upon her guardians to protect herself and I as she started, she said a dark energy had clinged on to me.

She said 'A horrible negative energy, he has a shape and a face, but he has the most horrifying dark eyes' She explained the man I had seen when I was 10-11 and I had never told her about it. After the blessing I was taught step by step how to cleanse my Aura. I don't quite remember it now but all I know is that I had to repeat the names of those who had hurt me or people I needed to let go of (passed relatives etc) after I said the last name in the ritual my Mum said she saw a light come off me. Like a strike of glow. I felt so good and boyant afterwards. I can't explain the feeling but total joy. We then sat down to talk about what happened. My Aunty said 'Bub, you have the gift. You can see, you choose to block it out but when you get older you will open up' I cried because at that time I didn't want the gift I was born with.

The most recent was the start of this year (Feb-March 2012) in the house I live in now with my mother and my neice (who has since moved out) My Mum woke up in the middle of the night thinking that my neice or myself were lying on the end of the bed. She looked and all she saw was darkness, she then felt as if she was being pressed down and couldn't move. She tried to call out but she felt as if she couldn't. The next morning, my neice was in her bedroom lying in bed. She felt as if something heavy was sitting on her feet so she moved them, the same feeling happened again a few seconds after moving her feet. She then went into the kitchen and sat with my Mum. I woke from a horrid dream, that I couldn't get out of the house and something was chasing me. I couldn't escape. My neice and Mum returned from shopping (I had no knowledge of the experiences my Mum and Neice had) I told my Mum about the dream and that's when she informed me about what had happened to her and my neice.

We then got my brothers mother-in-law to bless the house, her and a friend of hers walked around the house chanting a maori prayer. I could hear them coughing as they walked around. I sat in the lounge with my neice hugging her. My eyes didn't adjust to the black. The room stayed dark, I could see a kind of dark smog in the lounge and pitch black down the hallway. Your eyes should automatically adjust to darkness but it stayed dark. We had a prayer and sat down and talked about what happened. My brothers mother-in-law turned to my Mum and said 'You know one of your girls is gifted' My Mum nodded and said 'Yes, my baby is' (meaning me lol) She asked if I had any questions, I just asked 'Is it going to get worse?' she explained 'It will as you get older, its a gift and all you need to do is tell them to bugger off. Don't mess with ouija boards, wands and silliness. This isn't Harry Potter' Her jokes put me a little at ease.

I do believe I can see them, sense them. But I chose whether I want to or not. Who could be prepared for something like this? I'm getting older and I'm kind of scared. But I guess I have to embrace the gift I was given. I must have it for some reason right? Lol.

Thanks for reading, I would love to have feedback if you have had any similar experiences or if you have the gift of spiritual sight too.