I'm scared and I just want to know what to expect from the things I am experiencing.
I am a firm believer in the supernatural from multiple, terrifying, demonic experiences that I went through when I was 15 years old.
It started with my father when I was 15. One night I came home from shopping with my mother and caught my father smoking a cigar. My father had heart/lung problems and this act very much upset a emotional teenage girl. I began to scold him for his transgression and realized quickly that he was not himself and was not going to stand for my mouthing off. He absolutely lost it that night. My father has never before, and never since, been psychical with me.
That night was an all out battle. He said things so evil to me that I don't even want to repeat and that night he beat me. The following two weeks from that night things did not stop. The next morning my father's cell phone had a voice mail call from my sister's phone (who was in the house at the time). My sister's phone had no outgoing calls, and my father's phone had no missed calls. The voice mail recorded part of our arguing from earlier in the night (before it had escalated fully). The strange thing about this part of the voice mail is that my father's phone was placed in a different room at the time. The conversation that was recorded was recorded in the a totally different location then his phone (we were standing in the garage). The way the voices were recorded, it sounded like my father was standing a mile away and it sounded like I was screaming directly into the phone. Yet we were standing two feet away from each other.
This conversation was only recorded for a little over a minute when me and my father left the room to attempt to calm down (before the bad part of the night began). Yet the voice mail continued to record for over eight minutes (longer then any phone let's you record. The rest of the voice mail contained demonic voices that no human vocal cords could produce. We could faintly make out a few swear words and the word "kill" but besides that it was mostly gurgles and terrible noises.
A few night after this I was laying in bed and saw a dark circular shadow over my bed (clearly not my fan shadow). As I watched it, it got bigger and bigger. I had my Mom come into bed with me that night. I did manage to doze off but she attests to the fact that by the end of the night it had grown to take up my entire ceiling.
Also, things were happening in the laundry room. Both my sister and I heard children's voices coming from there and the dryer door would repeatedly bang open. In addition, we both heard a scuttling/paper crumpling/wing rustling like sound going back and forth across our bedroom ceilings at night for several nights. When I verbally cast out the demon in the name of God, it instantly stopped.
Things began to slow down as my family tried to fight this off. Things got much better, our family drew near, we forgave each other and nothing like that ever happened again.
My relationship with my father was restored. I grew up. I am now 21 years old and my father just passed away a little over two weeks ago after a horrible battle with his health (was in the ICU for over a month, on life support for a few days, having multiple surgeries). This has been a really hard time for me as I have mourned my father and I have been very unstable emotionally. My boyfriend has been spending a lot of time with me despite being in law school 2 and a half hours away from me.
He came to visit me again this weekend and since I am still fighting depression I did not want to go anywhere. Instead we decided to watch a new series together. I had previously watched American Horror Story Season 1 myself so I suggested we watch Season 2 together. (I was already a few episodes in, so I rewatched them with him.) I began to feel really terrible and not right about the content of the show. For those of you who don't know there is a strong religious theme which touches on possession, murder, Nazis, the mentally and criminally insane, etc.
During this weekend I also started to experience pressure headaches and uncontrollable misplaced anger towards my boyfriend (this could easily be from my upset with losing my father). However, one night I woke up to my boyfriend touching the wall next to my bed. He kept looking behind him as if looking for something that was scaring him. I was half asleep but I remember him putting his hand over my head and praying for me and asking me to wake up and pray with him. I was too tired but he said the Lord's prayer.
In the morning I wasn't sure if I had dreamed the whole thing until he mentioned "A demon visited us last night". He said that there was a black figure on the wall above me that night. There was no light source that could have cast it, he assured me he looked. The following day I felt much worse. The headaches got worse and I randomly got chills so bad that all my hair would stand on end (my boyfriend also experienced this).
I am not sure if this is something demonic that I have opened myself up to by watching that show. I'm not sure if maybe this is my father that I am feeling or a demon that is haunting me and following me.
Can someone more educated in the spiritual/supernatural field please give me some insight? I am not sure what to do and I am scared as my boyfriend will leave me tomorrow morning for the rest of the week I will be alone.