Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night confused. Most people do that at one point or another. From time to time I shoot up in a panic, I have just dreamt of something tragic a murder a rape, and assault. I know what you're thinking what's that got to do with anything, the answer I don't know. I awake with the feeling that it was a story that was given to me a true story from beyond, and even though I have no proof I know that it's someone showing me all this for a reason. What is it the reason? I mean am I supposed too help? So I try but never succeed. Everyday that I live I see ghosts, sure that may sound weird to you but not as weird as it is for me. I am a psychic medium and this is my life.
The other day I was being held to sleep and the dream I dreamt was so terrifying it left a bad taste in mouth all day. There I was a blond pretty woman, and I was trying to stay alive, yes alive. Every move I /she made was in every attempt to stay alive. This man had captured her, and would have raped her but instead she gives it up willingly, and then at one point she asked him if he has to kill her.
The man was a very ugly older man with grey stringy long hair. He was at all extents ugly with a bulbous big nose and a weathered face. And he replied that he had to and he was sorry.
The next thing I know is, I'm watching a woman who had just tried so hard to survive be smothered by a pillow. Her eyes, a cold steel grey, she looks straight and then her eyes shift to the right and they are frozen. She is dead, her hair blond and wavy and the look of death in her cold eyes, and the man, the man who killed her in what appeared to be a calmed state. Fast forward, the man drives off with the body to a remote area to an old abandoned house in the middle of the night and throws her body across the front of the property with no care. He left her there in the cold dark remote lot. I awoke traumatized.
When I get dreams like this one I feel the pain and fear of the victim and I am haunted from these images and they leave an imprint on my mind so vivid that's all I think of the entire day maybe even a week. First the feeling is scary then I just accept it. And it slowly goes away.
I keep having this vision it happens everyday. A woman in a powder pink v necked sweater is arguing at night in a kitchen with her what I think is her husband. The woman 30 or so very attractive with a ponytail, and her "husband" around 30 as well. Well dressed and good-looking they continue to fight. Suddenly there fighting loudly and then comes the stab right in the heart, he falls then she stabs him again 4 times, she is crying as she has the knife in her hand and she wipes her brow with her bloodied hand, her husband on the floor now dead. I see this image over and over daily and I've even tried to figure it out who but who ever is showing me this needs to finish the story if they can. I think I get these visions because someone is trying to get justice from beyond the grave. It makes sense to me how about you?
To some to be a medium is a real gift and ability to some it's all-fictitious, made up by ones own mind. To me it's a fact the dreams the feelings, the ghosts they are all fact. They are there and they are there for a reason. Maybe its that they have unfinished business or maybe they want justice maybe it's because they can't let go of something, but need to and all they are asking for is my help. I at times wake hearing them tell me their name where they are buried what happened and to go and write it down, but I don't I am mad that they gave me such a detailed horror story but I can't help but think that if I had maybe I would have gotten justice for some lost forgotten soul out there. So instead of being angry half a sleep and want them to go away maybe I should try to listen harder so I can get to the bottom of these dreams, feelings, visions. The best I can do is try and listen.
What about those ghosts you might ask. Well sometimes when a person dies they don't go into the light, I know what your thinking that's just a myth the light does it really exist. I do believe so. I have been crossing over ghosts for going on 5 years. They come to me for help and some can see the light and chose not to go in while others have such unfinished business that they literally have made themselves earthbound until they figure out what they haven't finished.
Many disincarnate being (ghost) stay earthbound if they are of a less evolved soul or perhaps because the aren't well, perhaps even mentally ill. Maybe they have killed someone or themselves, and they believe they will be punished on the other side for it. So to stay earthbound is better than to realize that might just not be true.
In my experience ghost behave the same, as when they were alive, same personality fears anxieties and issue. There is hope for many and for some there is not. So they will inevitably stay earthbound for years maybe 10-100 maybe forever. These ghost are not highly intelligent or have baggage to say the least. Many of their baggage could be a sudden death, their own of course. Maybe they themselves were murdered, maybe they got in a car accident and were suddenly killed. The event is so shocking and traumatizing that they are stuck in a posttraumatic stress disorder kind of way. Others don't even know their dead. It takes some convincing them otherwise, but when the do realize and remember what happened they usually cross over.
Now for example I have these two ghost who have attached themselves to me for unknown reasons even they aren't sure why. But these two are definitely mentally ill. Stalkers to say the least, and yes you got it right they can't see the light.
I have helped 100s cross over but these two are a challenge to say the least. They live in fear that they will be punished for their "sins" I have assured them that it's not how it works there but whatever they have done it haunts them worse then they haunts me. The female cries constantly and has terrible anxiety attacks while the other is a practical joker pervert who lives in fear that he will be thrown in some sort of jail on the other side, both are pathological liars and both need someone else's help. I have tried for too long to help them so I have given up and its time for someone else to try.
Truthfully I believe no one can help them but themselves and their unfinished business or fears are their own and they are the only ones who can save themselves. What do you all think? Whatever you think know this were defiantly not alone.