This is my first submission and I hope to find some sort of help.
I'm 15 years old and I'm autistic and I used to talk about my 'real' family when I was angry at my parents. I was only younger than 5 years old when I started speaking of this other family.
I remember having arguments and awful fights with my father since the talk of me having a real family angered him greatly. I used to point out places where this 'other family' lived or went to. My parents one day decided to ask me about this 'other' family. And I plain out said "They are all dead". Being the tender age of 4 years old I'm not exposed to anything such as death or the possibility of paranormal happenings. I was just a child.
My mother reckons I am a sensetive to the paranormal, my own opinion of my 'gift' is that I have picked up the energy or the memory of a spirit who lived there previously. That spirit is probably a child who's family tragically passed or was murdered and the child was moved to a new family. That is how I felt at the time of this speculation of me not belonging to my family.
11 years later my sensitivity has increased and ghosts are becoming more apparent and more noticable. I can't sleep without some sort of light. I have developed insomnia due to my fear of the darkness and I'm way too scared to venture into a dark room without someone with me. My mother now thinks the ghosts from my childhood have left the house and I'm exaggerating. Perhaps I am, I'm not sure. The idea of me being followed by a ghost has consumed my life and caused me to be afraid of being alone, the dark and facing the spirit. I'm not sure if the ghost is dangerous or not I just know from my experiences that it wants something from me. Be it friendship or revenge from a past life I'm not sure.
I need advice on how I can get over this fear and get on with my life and I can finally have a restful sleep instead of being awake shaking with fear.
I ask that you are open minded and sympathetic for my situation as a child. Advice will be deeply appreciated.