I do not use substances because of pain or distress. Although sometimes when I have had a long day at school or maybe having problems with friends. I will unwind with weed. Only once with alcohol. Yesterday I snuck vodka from my mom and took shots later that night. It was about half a water bottle full of it so I was nice and drunk but not completely slurring my words. I decide to go outside and get a cigarette from a friend around 10:45. I sneak downstairs, or at least I think I was quiet lmao. And I try to open a window but it's super loud. Then I hear my dog coming downstairs and my mom catches me. Skipping all the talking and arguing she tells me to grab a pillow and sleep on her floor seeing how she can no longer trust me. Keep in mind I have got the spins and still highly intoxicated.
Today after a long hungover day. My mom tells me I sat up randomly during that night and started speaking a foreign language. Which at the point of hearing this made my heart drop to hell. I asked if it sounded like maybe Latin or something of the sorts. She said she had no clue other than I was doing it for around 3 minutes. She then tells me I got up and tried to pee in the corner of her room?!?!? Like what? I remember nothing of this, let alone barely remembering last night at all.
For a little background to this. I had a dream earlier this week that had a weird beady eyed human shaped creature in it. It had the body of a human but no skin. It looked like it was all muscle and tendons. Its eyes were big and white with black dots as pupils. The arms and legs were stretchy and and long and spider like. The beginning of this dream started as me talking to my mom with the door open but the glass door was locked and closed. I walk over just to look out the door and it's just perched there staring at me. I turn around and tell my mom creeped out that there's a monster at the door and she doesn't believe me obviously. So I run to the back door to see if it ran there. Nothing there. Then I turn around and it's crawling through the door with its big legs and arms. I yell to my mom "OMG MOM IT'S COMING RUN RUN GO GO" in a shriek. She runs up the stairs which are basically in front of the door. I was scared to run past it so I was screaming "MOM NO HELP PLEASE DON'T GO HELP ME DON'T LEAVE IT'S GONNA GET ME!" but she keeps going I decide to run for it up the stairs. Once I get the stairs it made its way through the door and I start bolting up the stair hearing it thud behind me. Wondering how it hasn't gotten me for how slow I was going up the stairs compared to its long legs. As I'm running up I'm yelling for my mom but no answer almost like she's disappeared. I make it to the top and bolt for her room jumping into the darkness trying to hide in plain sight in the darkness. But as I hear it crawling down the hallway I decide it's not good enough. So bolt up the second flight to my room on the top floor. I reach the top looking down and it's just gone. But somehow all the lights are now off. Then snap like that I wake up like it never happened.
After this dream I woke up at 3:43 a.m. Quickly realizing that I woke up after this nightmare at the devil's hour. I have had it with all this. I don't know if this worked quite yet but I casted out all evil spirits out from this house and me and put protection over myself in Jesus's name. Keep in mind that was not a lucid dream so I had basically no choice in what happened. The dream just went along like a story.
I do not want help. I more just want answers. After talking to my mom and listening to some languages. We have concluded that it was maybe a middle-eastern language. Such as Hebrew or Arabic. I looked for Enochian but obviously with its complexity, I couldn't find anyone fluently speaking it for an example.