Before I begin telling you my story, I want you to know that English is not my first language so there may be some errors and this is my own experience. I don't post this for attention or stuff like this, I post this for some help from people that went through similar things as me, that can give me some advice. I know my account is new on this site but I started to read stories of other users from here and compare it to mine but I didn't found anything similar. (By the way I'm 15 years old female).
My family and I moved to Germany 2 months ago due to my stepfathers work. I'm originally from Romania... And there is where everything began. One night I was lying in bed and I couldn't fall asleep. I was very stressed because I had many tests in that period of time and I also had insomnia. As I was staring at my closet thinking about the next day, I fell asleep somehow. I woke up and next to me was a black figure and his chin was resting on his hand. I couldn't see its face but due to the shape of the body I could tell it was a male figure.
I was so scared that I instinctivly wanted to get up and get out of the room but it pushed me back on the bed. I wanted to scream but no sound was geting out of my mouth and I couldn't move my body, Suddenly he started to approach me and touched my cheek but in my mind I started to pray to God and I closed my eyes. When I opened them, he wasn't there anymore. That night I couldn't sleep anymore. The next day I was sleepy and tired and I told my mom what happened but she didn't believed me. She said that it was only a nightmare. I thought that she may be right because it happens, and I also searched on the internet about it and about REM (rapid eye movement) so I was thinking that this is something naturally that happened to me so I didn't payed too much attention to it.
Then after 2 or 3 days I was watching TV cause I couldn't fall asleep again. I felt asleep but I woke up because I realised that I am being pulled out of my bed. I couldn't move and a strong pressure was on my chest. I started to pray in my head and it immediatly stopped. My feet could almost touch the floor. I got out of bed and turned the light on. I can't explain how scared I was.
Of course my mom didn't believed me, but I knew that this time was real.
From that time, I felt hands touching me, even in the daytime. It was touching me in a sexual way. I started to google everything that happened to me and I found stories about Incubus and Saccubus but I didn't thought it could be one of them since I don't remember having any sexual dream.
My grandma reads a lot about paranormal stuff and knows many things about it so I asked her. She did a tarrot card reading (I don't know if that's how it is called in english) and it said that this is a spirit that protects me. She believed that is like my guardian angel or something because I didn't tell her about the way it touches me because I was ashamed...
Anyway I searched and searched and finally found a way. Someone said that basil leaves keep any kind of negative entities away. So I have a pendant and I put the leaves in it and I never get it off. I put some of them under my pillow too.
A year past and nothing else happened. I started to believe that this was all finally over but I was wrong. Here I met a guy and we really fell in love with each other. He is sweet and nice, different from other guys, but ever since he asked me if I want to be his girlfriend, everything changed. I started to doubt my feelings for him and I don't know why. I feel like I find all the reasons just to break up with him. Also I feel very uncomfortable around him. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Recently the touches came back and I'm scared and I don't know what to do. I don't want to go through what I went before and also last night I had a dream where me and my brother were talking " Me and Luke are together " I said, then my brother replied " Oh, believe me, I know that from a very long time" and he had this evil kind of voice. My stepbrother is a cold type of person that is hard to talk to and we don't talk much, even though we know each other for 3 years.
I was thinking that wasn't just a dream but probably the same spirit. I believe that, because when I wasn't wearing my pendant I could hear his voice and feel his touches, so whenever I was into a guy, he was telling me that I don't need that boy and stuff like this, that I have him and I don't need anything more. So when a guy liked me, after a short time he wasn't showing any interest in me at all after a few days.
Also when I was angry at someone, he would hurt them. For example I argued with 3 of my classmates and the next day all of them didn't come to school and my friend told me that they all got into hospital for different reasons. I argued with my mom and she got into hospital as well and I told the spirit to stop hurting the people around me and it stopped.
I think that this spirit or whatever it is, is trying to make me break up with my boyfriend, and it kind of works. I don't know what to do, I thought that if I move to another house it will stop but it seems that it followed me.
When I wasn't wearing my pendant I used to wake up extremely tired as I didn't even sleep. One of my friends that believes in supernatural stuff told me that it may be a posibility that it is an incubus and it may make love to me when I sleep and make me forget about it. I tried not to believe that since I never had sex with anyone before... But I read that there is a type of incubus that can erase your memories about the love making part.
My friend told me that I should contact the spirit somehow and she was thinking to use an ouija board but I don't really want to do it since I believe that this is a sin to use it and you cand attract negative spirits etc. And I don't want more problems then I already have.
Thank you for your time... And if you have any advice for me, please write it in the comments.