I am seeking help if there is any. My story is pretty long and messed up. It's probably all my fault. Thanks in advance.
I have always been interested in everything beyond the veil, I got my first set of tarot cards at 13 and have always seen "dark shadows" and UFOs. When Ancient Aliens came out I was obviously intrigued and soaked up any bit of information I could on the subject, including learning about women who "mated" with 4d light beings. I learned that I needed to become a medium to talk to these "aliens" and that's what I did.
The house we lived in at the time was over 120 years old, sometimes we would hear a deep growling sound coming from the walls, one night my husband and I heard it yell at our newborn baby to "shut up!". Sometimes we would hear it walking around the house, one night it threw a heavy cast iron pan across the kitchen. We decided to move when we found a burned bandana sitting in the middle of the basement. It was clearly meant as a threat.
After the move I got more heavily into the new age spirituality. I obtained what I thought was a "spirit guide" who appeared to me every night as a purple mist. It was clearly a man, he spoke to me, gave me images of flowers and feelings of love and sexual energy. At one point this spirit told me I needed to write him a love letter dedicating myself to him and to sign it in blood, he gave me a symbol to write on it, which I have since learned is a symbol for Satan. My husband saw him too sometimes but he always gave my husband anger and hate, showing his face and telling him I was cheating on him (I have NEVER even considered it) my psychic powers were very good, I did readings on a regular basis and was told I was spot on every time. Sometimes as I meditated he showed me symbols to draw and taught me how to do reiki before I even knew what it was. He told me it was "Psychic energy healing" and with his help I practiced on my husband.
One night my husband was working late and I was laying in bed meditating with this spirit guide and it raped me. I became paralyzed and it fondled my body, it felt like static electricity running down my neck, around my breasts and bottom and I felt it play with my lady parts, and it finished with quick penetration. I became very alarmed at that point and somehow broke through the paralysis screaming "No!" This was not the first time it had physically touched me, but it was the first and only sexual assault. All the while, my husband and I are having dreams of being sexually assaulted by random people (I never had sexual dreams before this, now it happens once a month, I will explain later) I will add my husband and I were having significant marital problems because of the anxiety and anger this thing made my husband feel (we didn't realize it was psychic attacks)
After this I was afraid. I trapped the spirit in a salt trap using a candle and called a local medium to help me get rid of it. The medium came to my house and told me I had a "spirit husband" who was very beneficial to me but that the spirit hated my husband and would do anything it could to tear us apart. They opened a door and had me tell it to leave. It stayed away for about a month then came back. I think it came back because I was still practicing mediumship and energy healing.
2 months later I had a miscarriage that turned my whole world upside down. After the miscarriage the activity increased. My husband and I would randomly hear a baby crying, we would run to our sons room thinking it was him, but he was sound asleep. I had visions of a baby and once had a dream of myself, laying naked on a cold metal table with an alien baby. Sometimes I would feel the weight of a child in our bed as I listened to the cry. I developed significant depression and my husband sought therapy for his anxiety.
We eventually bought a house and moved away but everything followed us, we would hear little feet running upstairs but our son was asleep, at one point my husband saw an apparition of a toddler in our son's room. My 4 year old son doesn't sleep through the night, he says "the ghosts are bothering me" (I tell him ghosts aren't real) he told me once the ghost told him " this is my bed, get your hands off of my toys!" We also continued to seeing the purple mist. I saged my house and bought each of us onyx stones to protect us, I tried to psychically close all of the portals in our home and bodies to no avail. Obviously only God was powerful enough to protect us.
I turned to the Bible because now things were affecting my son, I learned what I was doing was against God's word and I threw out everything occult related and never practiced mediumship again. We pray as a family multiple times a day and have repented. My relationship with my husband has greatly improved and we have fully dedicated ourselves to Christ.
But the purple mist and the shadow toddler are still here. I need to mention too, my husband and I have been trying to have another baby for 2 years but have come down with "unexplained infertility", all of our levels are normal and we continue to have rape dreams always on the day I ovulate. We still experience psychic attacks.
A few days ago my husband saw the purple mist while falling asleep; it attacked him and punched him in the face. He then fell asleep and had a dream where he was attacked and the person told him "what will you do once I take everything from you?" He fought and won, but still, we can't get rid of these things. They're attacking my family, not allowing us to fall pregnant, and I fear for my son. I wonder if we somehow conceived one of those weird spirit babies and have been marked for our involvement in occult (even though we were ignorant)
Is there anything we can do?