My story goes back 10 years. It all started with sensual feelings when I would just sit on my couch watching TV or reading a book. I would feel an arm around me, warmth and comfort. This went on for quite some time. It would be followed by noises in my bedroom next door, but somehow it never scared me. I was used to strange things happening in our house.
I never felt that I was in some kind of danger. It was more like a friendly co-existence of maybe spirits or my guardian angel. These were my thoughts about the happenings. All the nice feelings I used to think were from my angel. At night I would feel someone (?) hold my hands. So far so good.
One night things went further.
Just shortly after I went to bed and got into this half awake, half asleep state I felt my blanket being lifted up and someone climbing into bed next to me. I was laying on my side and this being cuddled up to my back and putting its arms around me and its hand on my breast. After some time which I must admit, I actually enjoyed this being pulled me around on my back and rolled on top of me. It went down on me and just before I climaxed I woke up. These events happened several nights.
This entity never hurt me and never scared me. It rather made me wish for its return. But at the same time I had very bad feelings of doing something wrong, something very unnatural. I had all sorts of bad thoughts about these happenings. And at the end it was these thoughts that made me get rid of it.
This entity took me out of my bed floating around the house and outside into the garden. The feelings were overwhelming. I even experienced sex while floating and flying around. I got really addicted to these sensations.
I must mention that I was married at the time and I always had the feeling that "my incubus" was a jealous thing. All sorts of accidents started to occur to my ex-husband and my marriage finally broke up.
I still don't know what it exactly is. A demon? An angel? Or what?
Questions over questions. Did it seduce me to get my soul? These are the thoughts that still scare and worry me up to this day.
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