As a child I did find myself very alone, a lot of bad things happened to me, and I was prone to seeing ghosts where ever we lived. We have lived in a few different places, and the one I remember more clearly was in an apartment in San Jose, California. I must have been around 8 years old.
At the time my life was really terrible, and I endured a lot of emotional, physical and sexual abuse (I know it's very personal but I feel it might be important) and my first experience with a ghost was early in the morning. I was the only one awake, my sister was the only other person there but she was asleep, and I saw a man in my room, clear as day, he got frightened and walked into my mothers room. After moving out I had terrible nightmares about that place, the events that happened to me, and events that MIGHT have happened there.
Now I am older, & every place we live in, I never feel alone. I have terrible luck as my mother and sister, and none of us have been able to be successful as hard as we try, and it seems something negative is ALWAYS around. I feel like my life is a mess, and if it is something bad I need to get rid of it. I thought I could be schizoid or bipolar, but now I'm not sure.
I have various episodes where I have to yell out to leave me alone because I feel it SO strong. I see movements when no one is there, and it frightens me to the core. My sister believed it was a curse placed on us, but I don't know, she was also told by a psychic that she has a very strong WHATEVER it is, and I have been told that before, not sure if maybe we just attract sad ghosts and they are ruining our lives. Especially mine.
I can't even sleep anymore because I feel like someone is in my room and if I am in an old place, with a lot of negative energy; I have really bad anxiety attacks.
I don't know if I have indulged so much in my depression that I am allowing these negative things to attach themselves to me, I am going through too much right now and I just want it gone. I do feel like I can feel these things, it might sound silly but sometimes I can predict a lot of things as well, little things, so I don't think I'm psychic, but ill think of something or someone that I haven't heard from in months or years, and just minutes after I thought about them, they call or write me or something strange. I'm not sure if that matters, I don't know where to go anymore, but if someone can help me, please do!