I am 26 years old and I believe in science and scientific explanations. I am a sceptic, and as far as religion goes, I am definitely an unbeliever. Yet, as much as I value science and scientific explanations, it is hard to find one for some events that have happened to me in my life.
Recently, I awoke from a nightmare and the residual fear kept me still in my bed. As I looked around the room, I saw shapes in the darkness. The best way I can describe them is as globs of extra-dark darkness. They moved around the room, climbing the walls, dispersing into parts, forming a shape that seemed familiar and then suddenly morphing into another. At first they seem to be playful. I find the more I focus on the shapes, the more intense they become. They get darker, larger, and more tangible. Whereas when I first look at them, they are fleeting and moving shadows, after I focus for a while, the shapes become more intense and, quite often, fill me with dread. You'll notice I am speaking now as if this has happened to me more than once, well, it definitely has.
It started when I was about 9 years old. I was extremely upset about something. I believe it was something very silly in retrospect, I think it was that my parents disallowed me from going to camp one year. Anyway, I was quite a temperamental child back then and I became extremely upset. At some point during my tantrum, I remember being alone, sitting on the piano bench in front of the piano in the living room, and as my rage and frustration reached a crescendo; I cursed the name of God. Almost immediately after I did this I looked up and saw this menacing transparent green eye in front of me. It was just floating there but it scared the hell of me. Aside from the eye, I could see a green arm and hand appear in just such a spot as if they belonged to the green arm. It was as if, directly in front of me, there stood a green human, but with only eye and arm visible. Naturally, I was extremely scared and ran to my room.
That night was the first time I saw the globs. For the next 4 months, I could not sleep properly. I would sit in my room, paralysed by the moving globs. I would try to stifle my terror for as long as I could before I had to wake my parents. Several times, on nights when my fear reached fever pitch, the globs became more than just globs of darkness. Once, they moved around amorphously and then on the wall began to spell something. They started to spell my name: TRAVI... And before they could finish, I ran from my room screaming. On several other nights, I saw a huge menacing bat-like figure hover outside my window. On the last visit, it actually entered the room. Finally, in the worst incident, I was sleeping with the door open and a red, clawed, semi-human arm floated slowly into my room and pointed at me. The arm incident is still the most frightened I have been in my entire life.
On most nights, however, it was just the globs that terrorized me. If it seems odd that I can recall these 15 year old incidents so accurately, I must explain that these were among the most intense of my childhood. I don't think I could ever forget them...Anyway, about a month after the incidents began, my parents were concerned and took me to a child psychologist. He didn't really seem to respond to my descriptions of the globs and I think he tried to prescribe me some type of medication, fortunately, my parents didn't think that was the answer. Eventually, I learned to live with them. I remember striking a 'live and let live' bargain (the globs often seemed to respond to my appeals in an affirmative manner) and I simply ignored them. Also, as I got older, more and more distracting media forms (TV, computer) were available in my room and this made it much easier to ignore them. Nevertheless, because of the globs, I have been a bad sleeper for my whole life.
I find they are most intense in the room in my parents' house that I currently inhabit (this is the room where it all started). For a few years, when my ailing grandmother lived with us, I was in my brother's old room and I really didn't have a problem. They were intense in my dorm in my first year of University, but not in my second, third, and fourth year rooms. They were intense in my apartment when I recently lived in East Asia. Aside from these places, I have seen globs in some other houses and hotels over the years. I remember being in a hotel in Indiana where I actually beheld a Dark Figure or Shadow Person, who are so often described in the experiences of others. It was a similar but different experience. For one, the globs usually appear while I am awake and have not slept, whereas I find people's Shadow People stories tend to occur after a bit of sleeping. Also, aside from one or two extremely intense events that I described, the globs generally do not take human shapes. I should also say that these experiences are primarily visual, although sometimes the fear is so bad that I have had ringing my ears.
I guess what I'm looking for is some kind of advice, or for someone else that has experienced something similar to come forward. I feel that these experiences differ from the Dark Figure type of experiences, which I have read about, and I have scoured the internet searching for similar experiences to mine to no avail.
I am slightly concerned that the 'truce' I struck when I was 9 years old may be at an end, and some answers might do me some good.
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