One day, earlier this year, I awoke after just a little sleep. I was somewhat groggy but otherwise fully awake. I felt something on my bed, and it moved around a little. I was sleeping on the edge of the bed, and whatever it was, was in the middle somewhere. I looked and didn't see anything. I went back to sleep and forgot about it.
A few weeks later, I had woken up and felt the same thing again on my bed. It was moving around, and I could feel a slight bouncing movement when it would occasionally stop. To me it felt like a small dog panting. I however didn't feel four legs walking on the bed. It felt more like one big mass.
This continued on for several months. At first, the frequency of the visits was only about once or twice a week. They wouldn't last long - just a few minutes and then I would lose awareness of it. As time went on, it would visit me more and more frequently, like five or six times a week. It would always do the same thing. It would come onto my bed, move up to my head, then move down to my feet, almost like it was examining me. It would do this over and over. I still couldn't see anything, but I could feel the weight on the bed and see the comforter move if the room had enough light. What was initially a curiosity started to get annoying. I yelled, "Go away!" to it and swatted at it with my pillow. It went away.
The next night, it moved something in the house for the first time. I have frequent indigestion and keep a jar of antacids in my nightstand. I was running low and had to restock the jar. They are muli-colored, and I dropped a pink one on the floor. I saw it fall, but didn't see where it landed. I looked around for it, but figured it must have rolled under the nightstand. I gave up looking. The day after I told the ghost to go away, I was getting off work and went into my walk-in closet to change clothes. There was a pink antacid balanced on one of the wood rods where you hang the hangers. I saw that, and my blood went cold because I knew exactly what put it there. I'm single with no pets, and nobody had access to my house while I was at work. This disturbed me somewhat, but I also saw it as a peace offering of sorts and maybe even a slight sense of humor. That night, I went to bed and when I woke up, there was a cushion from a chair in another room of the house on top of me. I went to put the cushion back and noticed that the ghost had also turned on a fan in the same room the cushion came out of.
From then on, I would go to bed slightly paranoid at what I could expect to find on top of me after I woke up. So far it hasn't moved anything else except for one incident where it lifted two towels out of the central bathroom straight off the rack and carried them into my bedroom and dumped them on the floor near the bed while I was sleeping.
Starting in August, the visits became daily. Before it would let me sleep a little before getting on the bed, but by now it was coming the minute I got into bed. It would lean against side of the bed. I sleep on my side, and through the pillow I could hear the mattress springs compress a little as it leaned. It would touch me and poke me in various places, usually my legs. It would also rub my forearms. I have a small turbo fan on the nightstand because it's very hot and humid where I live, and sometimes I need it to sleep. When the ghost was in between the fan and myself, I would hear a disruption to the airflow. It would do its old "get on the bed and move from head to toe" thing, over and over. By now I was thoroughly annoyed with it and wanted it gone. It was about impossible for me to sleep any more. I commanded it to leave my house and never return. It didn't listen to me at all. By then I dreaded coming home and going to bed.
I eventually got to the point where I could sort of see it. The air that's around it will strobe and flicker. It's very difficult to see. The room must be somewhat dim (I'm a night shift worker and usually sleep during the day), and you can't look straight at it. You must use off-center vision. It is a shapeless, almost imperceptible, flickering light-grey mass. That's the best way I could describe it. There's no change in temperature when it's around me. I don't smell anything either. I don't sense anything evil about it. I figured that it was just desperate for attention. I talked to a friend that's open-minded about such things, and he said the best thing to do is just ignore it and it will eventually go away. I thought about it, and figured that he was right. I'll just ignore it. Here's where things get interesting.
The day I talked to my friend about it, I went to bed and pretended to be asleep. Within a minute, I felt the familiar bumping of the bed and poking of my body. I was just going to ignore it. Then it got right in my face. My heart was pounding wondering what it was going to do. I could feel the shimmering, rippling energy of its face touching mine. I had my fan on, pointed at my head. The air from the fan was going crazy, in all different directions. The ghost got real still, its face pressed against mine. I felt what must have been fingers grabbing my forearms, and then I felt what were its feet touching my feet. It kept pulling itself closer and closer to me until... It was completely inside me!
In an instant, my consciousness expanded and my body became still. Have you ever woken up only mentally while the body was still comfortably numb? On rare occasions I've entered that state through meditation and a few times just spontaneously woken up that way. Your mind becomes crystal clear while you're just barely aware of your body. It's a nice state to be in. So anyway, here's this ghost and I conjoined. My body felt very soothed. It felt really wonderful but at the same time really creepy.
This now happens on a daily basis. As soon as I get in bed and pull the covers up over me, it is there with me. I am still fully awake, so this is not sleep paralysis. It lies next to me then slowly gets into me. The whole process takes about five minutes. I can feel its awkwardness at doing this. Its movement is very amoeba-like. It will pull parts of itself in and push other parts out to perfectly match my body. If I move an arm for example, it will have to move its arm as well to match mine. It has a little more difficulty when I have my fan on since it has to fight the air current. Once we're paired, I instantly enter that mind-awake, body-numb type of consciousness. We fall asleep together. It does not want me to turn over in my sleep because if I do, we have to go through the whole joining process again. If I start to get up to go to the bathroom, I may feel it grab my forearm and squeeze as if to say, "Hey, don't go!" It can have a surprisingly strong grip when it wants to. When I wake, I feel a nice tingling sensation that shoots down my body, and at that point I know it's gone until the next time I go to sleep.
I do not feel at all possessed. I'm in full control. I have a type of muscular dystrophy which leaves me in chronic pain. While the ghost is in me, I feel a soothing energy flowing up and down my extremities. I have stopped taking pain medication. I just don't need it anymore. However, I don't feel its purpose with me is to heal me. I believe that it's just an effect of it being within me. I don't feel like it is draining my energy. I've read that some spirits will leach energy from the living, but this one doesn't seem to be doing that. My dreams are not being influenced by it either. I don't sense that this is a relative or friend who has passed away. I don't even know if it's human (was human, rather).
I try to keep my sense of humor through all this. One day as it was coming for me, I said out loud, "With you every day is like Halloween, isn't it?" Another time, when it was already inside me, a rafter in the house creaked off in the distance. I said to it, "Did you hear that? I think the house is haunted. What do you think?" I could swear I almost felt it laughing.
One day I mentally asked it to stroke my left cheek. I waited and waited. After what must have been a couple of minutes, I felt the most exquisite sensation on my left cheek. It was as if thousands of tiny electric currents were dancing across my skin. It faded away very slowly, maybe after 10 minutes. I then asked it to stroke my right cheek. There was a very long delay, then I felt the same sensation on my right cheek. I wanted to communicate with it, and I was going to use left cheek for "yes", right cheek for "no", forehead for "I don't know", and lips for "I don't want to answer". It touched my lips only the following day, and never would touch my forehead. I tried asking it questions, both out loud and mentally, but I just didn't get much response. Sometimes I would get a much delayed response. I would be away from the house at work and maybe my right cheek would start tingling, but by then I had forgotten the last question I asked it. It does not seem to be interested in communicating with me at all.
I want to know more about it, and why it is with me every day even though I told it many times that I want it to leave me alone and never come back. It is very aggressive and relentless. I never invited it. If I want to get any sleep at all, I have to let it in me. Otherwise, it will poke at me the whole time I'm in bed. I have tried sleeping in other rooms, and it still comes for me. However, if I'm not trying to sleep, for example, reading in bed, it pretty much leaves me alone. Some days I almost look forward to it coming, but most days I just want it to go away. I am getting more and more used to it, and I can sleep a little bit now with it inside me even though my mind is racing.
I really don't know what to make of this. I want to know why it's doing this to me. I have never heard of a spirit sleeping within someone in this manner.