I read the stories on here all the time and have for a few years. I have made comments here and there but did not feel I really had an experience to post. That is until I read the post by Angel. Her story is somewhat similar to my experience, though not exactly.
I never physically saw a spirit that I know of, though I'm sure I have felt the presence of a few since I was young. I have often heard that spirits can/will visit you in your dreams as that is when you're most receptive to them. What I didn't realize was until last year I have been having those type of experiences for many years. You see, I lost my husband in 1991 and I have raised my kids on my own. They are now adults.
You see since then I have been having these dreams. The dreams I have had off and on for years would leave me confused and I would wake up crying. I have been controlling my dreams since I was a child so even when I feel like a dream is going down a dark path, I usually can change it so that it is not a nightmare. Like dreaming that I am running from something but then stop turn around and say "what am I running from, why am I afraid" and that usually ends the dream or I will control the dream, but I never felt that I had control of any of the dreams with him.
Now these dreams are different and each would end the same way, some would start out with the two of us being together after a long separation, like him having just run off or something like that. You know, missing for some reason. Sometimes we would be lying in bed or just sitting in the living room but he would not touch me and by that I mean no touching of any kind, no hug, no handshake, and no kiss, nothing. I would ask where he had been and why he was gone for so long but get vague or no answer at all. Usually in the beginning of each dream I would feel so in love, so happy for him to be in my life again but each dream always ended with me trying to figure out why he was rejecting me and I would wake up crying and hurting very badly, often this would lead into a bout of depression.
These dreams always left me feeling even more unloved than usual and since I have always had confidence issues I think they just hurt all the more. I finally asked a psychic that I felt I could trust about it and their reply was:
He is asking for you to let him go.
Look into a mirror eye to eye
Say his name, that you love him, and release him.
Do this daily and believe.
Frankly, when I got this message I cried because I have always wanted him to be happy and was very distressed to find that I am keeping him from moving on. Because of me, I was not only holding myself back from love and moving on but him as well. That part still hurts even as I write this.
I still do this and have not had the disturbing dreams since I finally told someone and asked for advice. I hope one day soon to be able to fully move on and find someone who will love me again. Someone that I can hold and cherish.