My grandma is my biggest hero, not just the outlook she had with life but even with having over 20 grandkids, she still made time to go to games, birthday parties, house visits etc. She always taught us to work hard, trust in faith, and to always help others.
On 12-12-12 (dramatic right?) she had peacefully passed on to a greater place. During this dreadful time I was going through nursing school. Being she was one of my biggest supporters, not having her there to give me pep talks was really hard. That spring after she passed away was my graduation.
Certain nights I would get frustrated with school and I would wake up the next day remembering my dream, and it always had her voice encouraging me. Soon after, I started noticing little things happening around the house and even though our house is very active, I would get a welcoming thought of "oh, its just Grandma."
One particular night I had done the laundry and I had forgot a pair of earrings in my pants pocket, but these weren't just any earrings; my grandma gave me this pair. After realizing they went into the wash and knowing our wash likes to eat things, I started to become really upset. So upset, I started to cry. I went upstairs heartbroken and telling my mom what happened, then all of a sudden I had a voice in my head say go back downstairs and look. I did what it said; looked under the wash machine, looked inside, looked back into the pants pocket, and of course could not find them anywhere. I just sat there on my knees fighting back the tears. I had this overwhelming feeling, like someone was standing next to me. I looked up and there on top the wash machine were the earrings! I knew right then, grandma was with me. So I thanked her.
The night before graduation, my boyfriend decided to spend the night with me knowing how emotional I was. And with my parents not being able to attend, he knew it would make it even harder on me. We were laying in bed when I quietly said, "It would be amazing if something would happen, like a sign that she was there... Even if it was as simple as lights flickering." He reassured me saying she is always and we fell asleep...
It's the BIG day and we're all standing outside in the hallway getting pictures. I keep fighting back the thoughts of my family not being present and telling myself to stay positive. As we're sitting in our seats waiting for the ceremony to start, I get a welcoming feeling, like the ones before... Right about that time our Administrator walks to the podium to give her speech when all sudden the entire room turns black! Our administrator announces they're having technical difficulties and then the lights came back on before she could finish.:)
...I smiled real big, I got my sign.