The most satisfying relationship in my life is the one with my maternal grandmother. She's my best friend, my first love and she holds a significant aspect of my peace within her being; I feel secure and unconditionally loved in her presence. And though, I moved to Atlanta years ago, I'd visit New Orleans frequently, we'd talk often and she'd mail cards religiously.
On my birthday, August 24, 2018, she died in ICU from cardiac arrest (she was in the hospital for a UTI and dehydration) and I am wondering, if you all find any significance in her dying on my birthday or is it a coincidence?
Also, I don't want to read too much into this, but I believe her presence might be near, because-- I feel the same wave of calm every so often that I felt when she was on earth. And the night she died I felt a vibration on my hands-- the next day, I felt that same vibration on my lower lip. I have read that when a spirit touches you, it feels like a vibration. What are your thoughts?
Lastly, her favorite color is yellow and two weeks ago while at the Banana Republic I saw a yellow dress and (for no apparent reason) I was contemplating buying it for her funeral, but she wasn't even sick. I'd also cried at least 3 times this year at the thought of her departure, though she had no ailments. My mother shared with me a few days ago that my grandmother told to her to give her wedding set to me when she passes. Are things things meaningful regarding her transition?
I would appreciate any feedback.