Ever since I was a little girl, I've felt like I was being watched. It got to the point where I refused to get changed in my bedroom. Every night, I would go to the bathroom to change into my pajamas and the same thing in the mornings. At this time, I was thinking it was along the lines of someone putting cameras in my bedroom, or my neighbors watching me through my window. It wasn't until later that I even considered the paranormal. At that point, though, I had decided to try and ignore the paranoid feeling, but it never fully went away. Sometimes, when I got out of the shower, I would feel like someone was standing in front of me, scrutinizing my body. I ignored it to the best of my ability and was finally getting used to the strange feelings, until about a year ago, the summer I turned 15.
My parents had never owned a house before, and our landlords were refusing to put the house we were living in up for sale, so we were moving to a different house in the same town. My siblings and I were staying at my grandmother's house while my parents got the furniture into the new house. One night I had a strange sensation. It felt sort of... tingly all over. The tingles were almost in the shape of hands. Like a ton of hands were touching me all over my body. I got pretty scared and got up to get a glass of water and walk around a little. Though it helped at first, the minute I laid back down, I would feel these hands. They were touching me in sexual ways. My stomach, chest and between my legs. After a while, I just tried to ignore it and lay down anyway. I moved my legs together tightly, trying to block entrance, and curled up in a ball.
This happened continuously for a while, and the more I let it happen the less it did. I still have a similar sensation today, although it has calmed down significantly. It only feels like one person, or one set of hands. Once or twice, I've woken up feeling aroused like it was touching me in my sleep (but never have I ever felt anything inserted. Even when I do feel the sensation in the lower region of my body, it only feels like touches). That hasn't happened recently though. Recently, it has been very gentle. For instance, I will sometimes feel the tingling sensation underneath my hair, like someone is combing their fingers through my hair, or it'll feel like someone is cupping my cheek. On rare occasions, I've even felt the sensation on my lips. This usually happens at night, when I'm trying to sleep, but I feel it during the day too. Another thing I've noticed is that the sensation will sometimes start at my feet and work it's way up, lingering in some areas.
I have to say, I feel a little crazy writing this as fact. I'm not even positive if I can truly call this paranormal. All I know is this is something I can't explain. For a while, I thought maybe I was just making it up. Creating this make believe person because of my longing for a boyfriend, but I couldn't seem to conjure the tingling feeling when I really wanted to feel it, only at times when I wasn't begging for it. So, it could be very possible that I'm just crazy and I'm starting to slip into my imagination, but I'm starting to believe more and more that this is real.
So this story is more like a search for answers than anything else.
Is this real? Or am I just making it up? Has anyone else experienced anything like this before?
Comments are greatly appreciated.
Recently, I have been considering an Incubus... But the more I read about them, the less sense that makes. Another thing is, I don't really want to know how to make it go away, I just want to what it is. I know, I must be crazy.