It has been quite a while since I last posted anything on this site. While I have been occasionally looking at various postings over the last several months, I have been extremely busy with events in my own life. One of these events was extremely spiritual in nature, and so I thought I would share this. Again, I have not had the chance to really "catch up" and reflect.
First of all, I'm pregnant! I still can't believe I am even typing those words. To think that I really thought I was going through pari-menopause (at least)! But, after what I thought was just the flu, finally ended up in a visit to the doctor. After running what seemed like a battery of tests, the nurse also had me take a pregnancy test. "What's that for?", I asked her, in kind of a half-hearted, half-smiling voice. "You'd be surprised how many women come in here with 'just the flu'", the nurse replied. So, I quietly slipped into the nearby bathroom and did my thing. It was an early afternoon appointment, and the morning coffee was already starting to run through me. 'No problem', I thought. I'll just take this test to rule anything out. As soon as I was done, I almost immediately handed the test (and a urine sample I had also been instructed to provide) back to the nurse. She had already drawn a blood sample, and so I felt now I was all set.
After what seemed like a small eternity in the exam room, a quiet knock at the door shook me out of my pre-occupied thoughts about work, and about the rest of my day. In walked the doctor, followed by a nurse. Almost immediately upon seeing my face, the doctor skipped the normal pleasantries and practically blurted out, "Congratulations! You're pregnant!". I was completely stunned and taken aback. While that wasn't exactly the most incredible news I was expecting at that moment, joy and excitement quickly replaced my stunned expression. "For real?" I replied weakly. "Oh yes! 100 percent for real!" the doctor almost chuckled. The nurse then chimed in as well, "The pregnancy test was a positive, and then we ran the blood work. You are definitely pregnant my dear!". The doctor then advised me to make an appointment with my OB/GYN as soon as possible.
The first thing I did right then and there was call my husband, who was on the gulf coast helping with the oil clean-up (My daughter and I live in South Florida. He is temporarily residing along the Alabama / Florida coast). "Honey!" I practically screamed into the phone, "You're not going to believe this! I'm pregnant!". I didn't even give the poor guy any warning. Nada. Zip. I just 'laid it on him' right there in the doctor's office. First there was a long silence (maybe 20 seconds). At first, I thought the cell phone call got dropped, but then I heard a very nervous man say "Wow! Uhh. Gee honey that's awesome!". I could tell he was very nervous and more than a little shocked. But, I also know how much he's wanted a baby since we got married. We went to Hell and back trying for years. So, I knew it was a real blessing.
About a week after going to my primary care doctor, I was able to schedule an "emergency" appointment to my OB/GYN. He is a gentle and kind man, and he examined me and had me booked for an ultrasound. Now, at this medical center, the ultrasound machine is shared by a group of OB/GYN's, so I was able to get an ultrasound directly after my consult with the doctor! The same day! Pretty awesome deal. Well, the ultrasound revealed that I was more than 9 weeks along! But I wasn't even showing or anything. I guess 9 weeks is still kind of early, but still. That's pretty amazing. My eyes filled with joyful tears as I looked at the first images coming through the screen. Wow! I immediately asked for a video, and the lady told me that there machine was older and she didn't have ability. "What about a picture?" I asked. She told me that was possible, so I had to be content with a picture. I scanned the photo as soon as I could, and e-mailed my husband. He was thrilled!
So here is where the really spiritual (and weird) part of my experience takes place. About two months ago (June 24th), I got home from work and took a shower. I was really tired, and I just wanted to get into something comfortable and climb into bed. My daughter was away at a girlfriend's birthday sleepover party, so I was all alone that night. I finished showering at about 7 PM, and toweled off. I then wrapped myself in the towel and walked into the master bedroom. My thoughts turned to my husband, and how we hadn't seen each other for any real length of time in what seemed like several weeks. I then really began to feel a longing for him. The house was quiet without him or my daughter. I felt very lonely all of the sudden. I sat down on the edge of the bed. Almost immediately, the air became electrically charged, with a particularly kind of "eerie" energy in the room. While this "charged" feeling briefly reminded me of my other spiritual experiences, this one was distinctly different. It was more sullen, even darker somehow. I don't quite know how to explain it better.
Thinking I would just rest my eyes for a few minutes, I lay back onto the bed and let my towel drop at my sides. I was completely nude at this point, but I wasn't the least bit concerned because no one else was in the house (or so I thought). What happened next was nothing short of amazing. The spiritual presence grew more intense, and I felt the air literally caress my toes, legs, and then my inner thighs. Then everything was still for about a minute or so. Suddenly, I felt a sharp electrical feeling surge around my pelvis, and I was quite literally jolted awake. Startled, I opened my eyes and saw a beautiful golden ball of light kind of hover over me in the air. It was probably the size of a softball, maybe a little larger. I began to see its thoughts in my mind. It was very sexually frustrated, and I could tell it was extremely interested in me.
Now, let me tell you, I am a happily married, faithful woman. I have NEVER cheated (or even thought about cheating) on my husband. With my mind, I began telling it "No", but it persisted. I could feel a kind of "rageful impatience" with this creature. Plus, it felt like a male. Other spiritual entities did not particularly exhibit male tendencies or traits. This one clearly did. I didn't like where this event was leading so I attempted to pray. Unfortunately, I forgot the prayers I had known since a child, and the being began to overshadow my body. In fact, I could literally feel swirls of energy whirl around me as a sensation began to form over my mid-section. It wasn't too long before it found my private part. Streams of current flowed through me, and I felt very desired by this creature. Again, I really felt itself asserting a male trait over me. Within a moment, I knew that IT knew I was pregnant. Suddenly, rage and anger filled the room. It no longer sought any kind of mutual pleasure. Rather, it only sought to fulfill its own selfish desires, and I could clearly feel this.
I felt the creature suddenly wanted to gratify itself, and in the process, use my body to do it. I was horrified at the prospect, but I couldn't move. Over the course of what seemed like several minutes, the creature began to stimulate my breasts and nipples. It accomplished this task by charging the air around the top of my breasts to act almost like fingertips in a way (I can't describe it any more than that). While the stimulation felt really good, I could inwardly sense it only did this as a means to further stimulate me down there, so as to further enhance its own pleasure. It was then that I had my first contraction. It was fairly strong, although it wasn't an orgasm per se. What I mean, is that it felt really good, but it was definitely NOT an orgasm or "release". At the same time, however, I immediately felt it this contraction immensely pleased the being that was "shadowed" over top of me. It succeeded in doing this several more times before moving on, with each time giving the creature a tighter formation.
With this happening to me, and as more time passed, I gradually felt the sensation down there tighten and intensify. Swirls of energy began to move in and out of me very rapidly. I could feel the creature's gratification was building, and I felt powerless to do anything about it. So, I just decided to hang on for the ride, and let whatever happen just happen. After what seemed like about five or six minutes, I felt my body physically shake. Then, as if someone turned on a light switch, I suddenly felt ALL of this creature's anger; rage, frustration, and desire explode into me, funneling down there in one instance. I literally felt a super wave surge of heat and tingling contractions hit my like a water facet down there. The heat was so intense; it began to roll throughout my body. I climaxed. The orgasm was so intense that I was able to clench each hand it a fist. The orgasm just rolled around inside me for several seconds. It was amazing. Less than two seconds later, I was able to climax a second time. This second orgasm was even more intense then the first. It felt so good, I actually moaned very loudly. Now, I want to say for the record, I NEVER moan. Not in two marriages, not by myself. Not ever. But this was different somehow. When I was done, I felt the spirit entity had left. The experience was over. I fell asleep.
When I woke the next morning, my hips and privates felt very sore, and I could hardly get out of bed. Just to make absolutely sure nothing was wrong with the pregnancy, I immediately scheduled another "emergency" appointment to see my OB/GYN. After a thorough examination, he noted to me that he saw some slight vaginal tears. He asked me if me and husband were having a little too much "fun" in the past few nights. He winked. Scared and horrified, I replied that my husband was out of town, and I guess I might have been too vigorous while going at it alone. He chuckled and said nothing more about it. Otherwise, the news was good, the fetus was fine, and gave me a clean bill of health.
Well, are you ready for this? About two days ago, I just got back from my 16 week ultrasound. The technician told me that she heard TWO sets of heartbeats! I am having twins! Well, not exactly. One fetus is much bigger than the other. At first, my doctor was worried that the initial scans missed the second fetus all along, and that it was just developing at a much slower rate. But, then, after thoroughly comparing previous scans taken throughout my pregnancy, plus running more tests, the conclusion was this: One fetus is about 16 weeks, and the other is over 7 weeks along! I was not having "twins" per se. Instead, I had become pregnant twice! I was stunned. What did he mean "pregnant twice"? I asked the doctor how this was even possible. He told me that I was one of those rare women who are able to ovulate while pregnant. The medical term for it is called Superfetation. He says this is very rare, but it also happens more often than one might think. I asked him when he thought the "second" pregnancy was conceived. He looked down at his chart and thought for a moment or two, and said the conception could have happened in late June. I was shocked and mortified! "late June?", I asked, "Like June 24th?". I was VERY scared. "Could be", said the doctor. "It all depends on exactly when you last ovulated, and when you're newly ovulated egg was actually fertilized".
Now, to be fair, my husband and I last got together over the July 4th Holiday weekend. So, I was trying to calm down. "What about July 4th? Could that also be a possiblity?" For the first time my OB/GYN was puzzled. "Well, yes, of course it COULD BE also". I openly sighed a heavy sigh of relief right in front of the doctor. I don't know what he presumed to think about me, but I didn't care. I was just relieved to know that the 'conception window' was fairly broad. I could tell no one at the health center really had a clue exactly WHEN I conceived, because they couldn't give me a baseline without know when my last period was. Since I am pregnant and didn't have a period for quite a while, they really could only estimate.
So, here I am carrying "twins" which have been conceived at totally different dates. I am still a bit overwhelmed and scared right now. I have not yet told my husband about this one. I am sure he will firstly freak out but then get very excited. He wants a boy so bad. Even at 16 weeks, the doctor says it is hard to tell. When I pressed him and the ultrasound tech, they said it was likely I was having a girl. But, they also couldn't get a really clear look at the images this time around. I will wait for my next appointment in two weeks.
I am left with the obvious question: Was the second conception from my husband or from this vile creature. While the overall sexual experience was great, the baggage associated with this creature was dreadful. I could feel its rage. It was almost a type of jealousy. It is hard to know whether this entity was the one that had visited me in the past. It sure didn't feel like it. Also, unlike many other visitations, I could definitely feel that this creature was a male. He asserted himself like a male, especially when he "entered" me. Although, unlike another story I posted here, this creature did not leave any kind of liquid or anything of that sort. I just wanted to be clear on that.
Feel free to comment. I will keep you posted on the status of the pregnancies. I can even put up some ultrasounds sometime if you really want to see those. Pretty amazing! Thanks for reading!