I'm a 28 female. My dad recently past and I was left with unspoken words, regret, Guilt, remorse everything you could imagine. I recently moved into a new apartment by myself 5 months ago. I've always had this feeling that my house was a safe haven to where my dad came to visit me whenever he chose. I would wake up at or about 3am every morning look at the time then go right back to sleep. I didn't think anything of it because I always thought it was my dad just visiting me. Twice I've been laying in bed with my eyes slightly closed I would see a shadow cross over me as if to lay down next to me. Again I wasn't scared because I thought if it was my dad he wouldn't harm me I'm his daughter maybe he just came to visit me.
Just 2 days ago a friend came to visit me at my home. I was in for a rude awakening in this visit. My friend who senses paranormal activity due to being a medium actually saw a shadow while we were having dinner. At first he didn't want to tell me but I saw the drastic change in him and I asked what's wrong. At first he didn't want to tell me but after asking and asking, He told me that I have a spirit in my house. He then zoned out as if communicating with it. He then got upset and told it "I don't care I am going to tell her and there isn't anything you can do about it" He Told me the spirit is having sex with me at night when I am asleep. He then asked me a couple of questions one of them being if I'm tired when I wake up. I then said YES which is not like me at all almost as if paralyzed with no energy at all. The very same day I took my dad's picture out from storage and I put it in my dresser because I was going to have it enlarged to hang it on the wall out of respect. I turned the picture face down on my dresser. When my friends came over I went to get something from my room to find my dad's picture facing upright leaning against my nail polishes as if I put it to stand upright when I didn't I swear.
I really don't know what's going on when my mom comes over to stay the night. She dreams of only deceased family members meanwhile even if someone is on my bed or in my house I still wake up around 3am every morning. One time I even woke up to find a hickey on my inner thigh. I did some research on this "INCUBUS" and it seems common but the thing is I don't remember anything that happens to me. I don't feel anything, nothing at all. I feel so afraid to go to sleep. How can one ever go to sleep expecting and knowing this will happen to them every night? I visited a higher medium about it the very next morning only to confirm he is getting some really strong vibrations from me. I didn't get to speak to him long as there was no privacy but I'm awaiting his call as we speak. He briefly told me without me saying a word to him that I'm having some very powerful dreams and it wakes me up at night. I told him but I don't remember anything he told me "you're not suppose to" He says he has an Idea what it is but he wants to confirm it is before he tells me. I am again waiting for that call.
What I don't understand is why don't I remember anything if it is an incubus and does my dad even when deceased have any relations to me anymore? I asked this because I don't believe it is my dad doing this but isn't he supposed to protect me from this incubus? Am I losing my mind here? Other than the most powerful thing which is a prayer is there any way to protect myself from it coming after me tonight?
Please I ask those who have experienced this before to advise me in the right direction.