It started when I was about 16 shortly after my mother and grandmother passed. They both passed away from terminal illnesses 9 months apart. The house I grew up in was a very old farm house.
The first odd things that started to happen were I would hear knocks on the windows and knocks on the walls. Which at first I just dismissed being an old house. That continued off and on for a few months. My dog that I had at the time would stare at nothing and growl. I would walk into the kitchen and every cabinet door would be open, this happened several times over a year and a half. A few times we had a ceiling fan that would spin and the light would flicker, even though the fan was not connected to electricity the wires were hanging down from it. I would be asleep in my room and I would feel something grab my foot, I would awake and nothing was there but it would be really cold. No one else experienced this, since I was an only child and my father was rarely home due to his job.
My father remarried and we moved and it seemed to stop other than still having my foot grabbed, Not every night but a few times a month. While living with my ex husband I would constantly see a shadow move out of the corner of my eye. I would feel something watching me all the time. I never felt "safe" and I am a combat veteran so it makes me feel a little silly to not feel safe in my own home. My Husband and I got divorced and I moved out. I felt a little better but still felt watched.
Then a few months later I was again feeling my foot grabbed every night for two weeks straight. I was at my boyfriends house during those two weeks not living there just staying the night. I never said anything to him until we were sitting in his living talking about a recent argument I had gotten into with my father about some family issues. When we both heard this hiss but almost a growl coming from the corner like I have never heard before. Scared the crap out of both of us. The tv nor the radio were on at the time.
Ever since that night the feeling of being watched and the shadows out of the corner of my eye have gotten worse. We were in his garage smoking a cig and when we returned inside it felt as though someone was right behind me and I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I didn't say anything again for fear of being called paranoid until he told me the next day he felt the same thing.
Now it doesn't matter what house I'm in, his or mine, I feel watched and threatend. I don't have a mental illness, nor does it run in my family. I just want this whatever it is to leave me alone. I could say that the frequency that these things have happened to me have always increased when I have had an argument with someone or have been upset. I have lived with this most of my life as I am now near 30. I never got really worried about it until it bothered someone else. I don't want him to have to deal with this too.
I guess I am posting this hoping someone knows what this is and how to get rid of it.
Thank You
Amanda
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Fairly sound advice you have received here. It does sound as if you have an attachment, and it also feels the need to assert itself when you are most vulnerable. Your assertion that as a combat veteran you feel silly being scared. Truth of the matter, regardless of whether it shows or not, fear manifests into self-preservation and although many heroic sacrifices have been made by many, fear should be used as a motivational tool, and not regarded as a weakness.
Rook's cleansing recipe could work well to provide you safe haven and is definitely worth trying, but I doubt it will make this presence go away entirely.
In my opinion you have two choices. Steel yourself against its effects and ignore it completely... The noises, the feelings, the touches, all of it. If getting a response from you is what it thrives on; take that away. Your obvious concern will then turn to those around you. If it continues to affect them; it will use them to force you to acknowledge it.
I have had experiences, and have grown comfortable in what I've experienced, to the degree that you can... So my tact would be to address this entity directly. Let it know that you are aware of it and start laying down some ground rules. You have to believe that you are allowing it its existence with you, and that you can make it leave if you want it gone... And you need to let it know that. It should not be allowed to scare you or manipulate you in any way... If addressing it escalates the activity, you can make it leave by force if necessary.
Lou
Side note: an9e1eyz24, glad to hear things are improving for you... Keep us posted.:)