Tonight I let my dog outside and I was making myself a cuppa tea. Then I decided to look out my kitchen window, and I looked over to my granda's house into his spare room as he just lives across the road.
My gran has only been dead for 8 months. She had cancer and on the day she was meant to get home, she died of pneumonia.
Anyway, when I looked over into the spare room I saw something, couldn't quite see what it was. Then the blinds started moving slowly, then it was like it was really windy but the windows were closed. Then I closed my eyes and opened them again and I looked deeper, the ghost had a face.
I swear it was my gran. And she looked at me. She moved but didn't say or do anything else. At first I was ok, then I started to think and started freaking out a bit. I also spoke to my mum about it who thinks I'm mad.
But just 5 minutes ago, I had a crank call from a private number. I'm having a slight panic attack and shaking. It is really scary as this is my first experience.
I think my gran is somehow trying to contact me, but I don't know why. I would love to have contact her. I believe in ghosts. I want to see her so much as I never got a real chance to say goodbye and haven't really grieved properly because I have had a lot of problems of my own to deal with.
I think that maybe she is trying to tell me that she is there, watching over me and that she will be there every step of the way until I stop needing her and wanting her. Which I think will be never as life is too hard without her and I'm struggling myself to let her go.
I'm 28 and got 3 kids and my problems are big, and all I want is my gran and for her to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright.
I think my next step will be to look out the window again same time tomorrow night and try to say something and maybe get her to give me some sort of sign that she is here in case she can't actually speak to me in words. I don't want her to leave me. Is that wrong of me?