I don't even know how to start, this is my first time I write something on a site, I usually don't speak about what happen to me, just family and close friends know.
Everything started when I was very little. My family did not tell me that I had a twin brother, but I always knew, I always felt him strongly until the age of 6-7 years old, after that I felt him only when I was upset or hurt, now I feel him just when I am in great pain or very sad, depressed. This is not a problem, I actually feel protected by him, the problem is I feel ghosts, I feel when someone is going to die and I even see White shadows, it scares the hell out of me.
I am from Romania, I am not very religious, but I strongly believe in a greater force especially after all I've seen and felt. 7 years ago my great-great mother died, but before she died she grabbed my shirt and told me that someone is trying to make me suffer and I will have a heavy heart all my life. Then I never thought she was referring to this, but now I am 100% sure she knew what she was speaking about. At that point I was leaving alone in a 1 bedroom flat. That week she died and in that period I got out of an 8 year old relationship. I was devastated... It was a very hard period of my life.
Being alone in that flat was horrible and I became to be very afraid. I felt that someone wanted to hurt me, make me suffer, I even started to sleep with the light on. Every other day my light bulbs exploded.
One night after visiting my mother I went home and of course I've turned off my living lights... It exploded. Turned the lamp on... The light bulb from the lamp exploded also. I have changed the light-bulbs thinking is some kind of electricity problems, but the feeling of someone watching me never disappeared.
After about 2 hours someone knocked at the door... I simply froze... It was about 1 am, Who the hell could it be? I tiptoed at the door, looked through the door viewer but no one was there. I've ran back to the living room and felt that something/someone was watching me. I was very afraid, did not know how to react, what to do...I've tried to watch TV... At some point I fell asleep on the couch.
At one point I woke up on the floor, screaming, feeling fire around me, feeling that I was burning in flames and I heard someone shouting, a female voice. It felt so real, but I also felt that woman that was shouting tried to hurt me.
From that point The bulb light exploding now and then was a common thing, the horrible feeling that I felt that night continued for a couple of months, until I visited a church and spoke to a priest (my friends insisted to do this).
Everything stopped for a while but continued after I left the country and moved to UK here I've started to be sad again.
Please help me, or if someone was in the same situation like me, give me some advice. I will continued with some more stories later.
Feel free to ask me anything!
Thank you for reading my story!