I am 20 years old & I've been playing with spirit boards since about the 8th grade. I woke up a few times when I was younger locked in fear feeling as if someone was standing at the foot of my bed watching me, but I couldn't see. After that I stopped sleeping in the dark. I've had what I thought was sleep paralysis for a long time but I've gotten used to it.
It's been happening multiple times a week for a few years now. I'll often wake up because I feel like my arms are being stretched behind my back and my feet are being pulled. When I start to fall asleep I usually feel frozen in place, like I know it's happening but I can't will myself to move. Then comes the bad dream, and I subconsciously feel it get worse. Often it's a dream where I'm falling down in a spiral and don't have control of my feet. Sometimes I feel as if my teeth are being pulled out of my mouth. I fight very hard to wake up. It takes everything in me to shake my head or cry out.
A few months ago I met my birth mother, who has played with spirits since she was a child and had her own experiences with demons. She makes spirit boards out of wooden planks. She paints random scribbles and letters until the board is covered and marks the edges with chalk. She then summons someone, asks questions and "reads it as she sees it." Things she doesn't remember moving are often in a different place. It's very eery at her house.
I was using an old spirit board and have been letting it sit in my room. In the beginning when I would try to play with it, the oracle would immediately move to goodbye, ending the conversation. It's been sitting in my closet since. When I'm home alone I hear the desk chair in the next room move back and forth, and someone sigh loudly. The door is kept open and when I walk past it's dark and looks creepy.
Last night I fell asleep on my back with the light off and woke up yelling "no!" three times in ten minutes. The first time I had felt like someone was sitting on me shaking my body. The second time I felt like someone was pulling me off my bed, and woke up kicking. The third time I woke up scared and saw there was a pillow in front of my face. I immediately knew I hadn't fallen asleep with it. I grabbed it and threw it on the floor.
Does this happen to anyone else? I'm literally terrified to sleep but sleep is part of life so I have to figure it out you know? Playing with the other side is not a joke, and there's no going back once you start.