Alright so I have never posted anything like this so cut me some slack if this sounds really annoying.
I have had sleep paralysis and demonic dreams since the age of 11 and they seem to just get worse especially in the past two years since becoming sexually active. The paralysis is a regular occurrence and happens at least 3 times a week. I will usually wake up paralysed to a truly evil growl in my ear, something walking over my bed or in most cases an incubus spirit having its way. From reading the guidelines to publishing I will not cover the details of that topic.
My sleep paralysis has become so bad I sometimes fear for my life. In one occurrence I had woken up not being able to move or speak as usual but also feeling a large pressure on my chest which is apparently common for people who suffer sleep paralysis but the pressure would come and go, with that I felt energy from my body leaving every time the pressure would leave my chest as if whatever spirit or being was with me, was taking my life energy away from me. That's the only way I can really explain it. Whilst this was happening I was trying to wiggle my fingers and toes (a way I usually can get out of my paralysis state) and then suddenly I sat up.
Obviously being the scared 16 year old that I was, my first instinct was to run to my parents room. However as soon as I would open the door to my parents bedroom, I would be in my paralysed state again. This would repeat about 7 times, the pressure on my chest and energy leaving my body getting worse. Eventually I began to feel like someone had their hands around my neck, choking me. I could not breathe for what felt like a long time but really was not. I felt like my life force was leaving my body. Finally I pulled all my will together to sit up, being able to breathe at last I ran to my parents who did not believe a word I told them.
The second occurrence I am going to tell you all about is something that happened to me just this morning. I woke up at around 6 am and went about my morning (breakfast and checking messages). Two hours later, laying in my bed on my phone I suddenly had a strong need to sleep (which is a usual sign that I am going to have an attack from a spirit during sleep paralysis). Being the stupid girl I am, I fell back asleep only to wake up again paralysed laying on my back. This time feeling something walked on my bed stopping just before my right hip. Having the feeling something terrible was going to happen I closed my eyes, when I opened them a black figure was right there leaning over me. Giving me an overwhelming feeling of dread and fear. The threatening figure would disappear and reappear every time I would look at it.
I could hear voices of my Mother and brother in the house. I tried to scream for help but obviously nothing happened. The figure began to grow and then I felt energy push into my stomach which is really bizarre, as soon as that occurred the figure disappeared and instead I saw writing all over the walls of my room, letters and numbers but it was like something wasn't allowing me to read it. The writing was also disappearing and reappearing.
Trying to get up the exact same thing happened to me that occurred in the first story I told. I would put everything into getting out of my paralysed state, only this time when I was out, I would walk to a corner of my room and then be back into my paralysed body on my bed. This happened many times until eventually I could finally move. I walked out of my room to talk to Mum and found her in her bedroom. I asked if her and my brother were up and how long ago. She told me that her and my brother were up around an hour ago! That means I was possibly in that state for at least an hour.
I know to some of you may think this isn't that bad and there are people who go through worse which is very true. But I have never seen a black figure like the one I saw this morning. I have only felt the presence of spirits or heard them which does not bother me when it isn't too threatening. I am currently going through bad depression and anxiety which could possibly be caused my some sort of evil spirit as I have read from websites about this topic.
I am only 16 so please do not criticise me too much, I am only asking for advice on what to do. I apologise for any bad spelling, grammar or sentence structure in advance.