I have some concerns... But to understand I should start at the beginning...
When I was about 3-4 years old, my grandmother was messing with an ouija board around me. At one point there was a knock on the door and when grandmother checked outside nobody was there. I told her, "there is someone. It's a man and he wants you to let him in." My grandmother said no, quickly shutting and locking the door. The house suddenly felt like there was earthquake. She took the ouija board and burned it. I then start becoming sensitive to people's emotions and places of deep emotions / history. This happened in Dallas, Texas 1994
Fast forward to age 9. I was taken in by my other grandparents (parents were divorced and not taking proper care of me & younger sister) I was in my room, very upset as I didn't like the way everyone was treating me. A black mass in the shape of a dog of some sorts appeared. It told me it would be my friend, my strength, and the only thing I had to do was let it be a part of me. Well, kid me just assumed I had made an imaginary friend so I agreed. I continously saw an unknown figure throughout the house. That was between 1998-2008 Marietta, Georgia.
Since then I have had a strong connection with spirits / places, like I had become a magnet. But only one is really strong and has been attached to me. My exes and now husband have all claimed to see him in some sort of way. (2006-2009) 1st ex swore one time he saw a man of red hugging me and it caused my eyes to turn red themselves. (2009-2011) 2nd ex swore he saw the man of red several times in the house and he always seemed angry towards him. (2014) My now husband has dreamed of him, saying the man was standing outside of the house looking at him angrily. I never spoke of the man to any of them until they mentioned the encounters.
There are times I don't quite feel like myself, like I'm in a trance or in a dream. I have been told I talk in strange and different voice in my sleep. I had many strange and vivid dreams, especially after having my 1st child. The spirit doesn't seem interested in the children, but to my partners.
Can anyone give me any advice or suggestions?