Meditation Encounter

I'm not sure how to start this really.

But here goes...

A little back history for this experience.

My mother's upbringing was quite tumultuous. Very chaotic, abusive etc. She brought that with her as she lived. She always had a dark cloud just lingering above her, and she never knew quite how to get out from under it.

One evening I decided to try to help her clear some of the negative energy around her or at the very least get a glimpse of what it was that has been plaguing her. Just to try to figure out how I could help her, in some way.

So I started off my meditation ritual, and soon ended up deep in.

I envisioned her, she was standing there. She was in the dark.

I began by asking for help with protecting her during this, and healing etc.

It was a good 30 minutes in when I was just about to end the session. All was going smooth until I envisioned a fire burning all that was not for her good, not of unconditional love, healing and protection around her protecting her from any negative, evil wrong doing. Encircling that was a dark blue light for protection and white light for healing.

I started to get a push back. I could feel it in my body and in the energy around her. I kept going repeating and envisioning the fire. And the push kept getting harder. The dark around her, looked and felt darker and stronger.

As I kept going my body started to vibrate. The energy was so strong it pushed me out of my meditation. When I opened my eyes I sat straight up and realized I had been sweating and breathing hard. Much like I had been in a physical fight.

I gave thanks to my spirit family and Team for the assistance and protection. I heard one of them say "it is not safe, never again."

I promised I wouldn't, and I haven't since.

That was the one and only time I tried helping my mother in meditation.