One of my good friends passed away a few days ago. He was only 19 and he used to take drugs from time to time, he worked a lot and studied hard, and he used to say that, he needed to "get our of this world completely at least once a month". Well, now he's gone forever...Or, maybe not completely...
It's still hard to believe for me, we knew each other since 5th grade and spent hours together absolutely every day, or at least talked to each other on phone or in chats, but, I'm 100% sure we haven't spent a single day without speaking to each other.
He had these black glasses the he adored since high school, and almost never took them off, I thought I would look cool in them, so, I frequently used to ask him to lend them to me, he never gave them to anyone, and he jokingly once said that, only if he died before me, I could have them. I didn't want to take any of his things from his apartment, but, then I remembered about the glasses and took them with me now, I kind of regret doing that.
Since I brought the glasses with me, my cat started to behave kind of weird, she always was a quiet one, and now she jumps at every small sound, makes grumpy noises while just sitting and at night sits by the main entrance not moving, not reacting to anything. I was already freaked out by this when other things started to happen, another friend of ours took from his apartment a necklace, just to have something from him, and yesterday he called me, saying he felt like someone was touching him around his neck for all evening, and he felt kind of scared. I was already ready to lock the house and stay with friends for few nights or so, because I started to have weird dreams.
I dreamt I was getting up, turning on my PC, opening one of the music players and some horrible noises and cries came out of there, when I woke up, I barely convinced myself to do it, and tried to turn on the player, it gave me a massage of errors in the program and then it started to fail completely, although, it started to work just fine after a few minutes. I turned off the PC and wanted to get up, when I felt like someone was stroking my hair quite gently, it even felt nice, but still gave me chills and I asked my friend to come over and stay with me.
The thing is... Even if he died because of such a stupid and completely useless thing like drugs, I know he was a great friend and always tried to help others. And I am sure he won't hurt any of his friends, I just...Well, maybe I am going crazy, but, something tells me it's really him, and not only I feel this. Or maybe, I just want to think it's him... I don't know. I've never been much of a believer or a spiritual person, but, now, I think I'm about to change my mind.
I even feel safe with him around, even if I'm still a bit scared, although, my friend says, if it's him, than he needs to leave wherever he has to go, but, I don't think I want to let go, and besides, I don't even know how to help him leave.