I need help I really need help. Either I'm going insane or this is real. I'm seeing a doctor but I need second opinions regarding this field of intuition.
I was going to post this in the psychic page but this isn't about ESP or whatever it pertains to the in-between, the next layer. The unknown and indefinable place we sense as children some more than others the ghosts, the dead if that's what they are. They surf through my existence.
I could always sense those who walk beyond the veil weather they were good or evil or whatever happens in that other place. God it scared the CRAP out of me all through my childhood. The sleepless nights the confusion and fear, I had no control. I always felt unsafe because I was so guarded and ignorant. I finally was able to close that door in my mind... But it's begun jarring open again. Though now things are different, it's not just a feeling. This has become a tangible problem that is either a psychic one or a psychiatric one.
I'm a 21 year old woman and I'm hearing things that aren't there (or are they?) I'm seeing figures standing over me in my awakening, my dreams are becoming more and more lucid, I can feel presences, not a presence but more than one like I'm standing in the middle of a spiritual highway and I'm being run over in the night blindly by those who have crossed or are in the in-between. I'm being watched I can't explain everything. I can't help but be guarded and I don't know enough yet so I have to leave lights on and leave the TV set on to drown out the whispers so I can sleep.
Either I have an ability that I have suppressed for so long its burst out like a floodgate and I'm severely overwhelmed trying to gain control of it or the worst in the mental illness realm has begun to take its course on my mind. What if its not whispers from the other side? What if I'm a schizophrenic?
My doctor doesn't believe me, he shrugs it off because I haven't shown signs before but YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO! THIS IS THE AGE FOR FEMALES FOR THE PROCESS OF MENTAL DETERIORATION! It's that or I have a gift or a curse! I just... I need some sound advice from someone who won't look down on me or sweep this turmoil under the rug. I need traction! I just need to be taken seriously please help!
If you are a medium to the spirit world have you ever been in this dilemma?
I feel like the lady from "Candyman" or Halle Barry in "gothika" where no one believes you they just think you're damaged.
If I don't get this in gear I'm going to end up in a rubber room.
How do I find control?