I am a 24 year old girl and me and my family have lived in the same flat for about 17 years now. Ever since I was little I remember feeling some entity's presence from time to time. I just did not want to admit to myself what it was. About 2 weeks ago I started to feel light touches at night. Something would touch me lightly on the shoulder, arm or foot. One night I woke up and started to feel the touches and than I suddenly heard man's voice in my head. It said hello very clearly. It felt like a young man around 30 years old. That scared me so much I had to go to sleep near my mum. It does not try to touch if I'm not alone so it was the only escape.
Recently I started to feel his presence not only at night but starting from about 8 pm. It would stand at my right side from where I sit or stand in the doorway in the bathroom when I wash my face or (that happened just couple of times but seriously freaked me out) be in the bathroom when I shower. The fact that I know he is a guy and that he can follow me everywhere around the flat no matter what I do doesn't make things any easier.
2 days ago I was writing a report for the university and around 7 pm I felt that he was standing at my right side. He started to touch me on my arm or shoulder too. As much as I was freaked out by this I decided to talk to him. I told him I was scared of his touch and asked him to change it to a blow of air (touching me with the air). He did and I started to feel him as cold air near my right hand. Than I asked him not to follow me to the bathroom and not to stand in the doorway there, but allowed him to put his thoughts into my head. I asked him to tell me his name and he offered me 2 to choose from.
After some time he mentally led me to listen to Nora Jones song "Man of the Hour" on YouTube and said that this is what he is. In short the song was about a loyal friend who would never betray and is always meaning well. After I listened to it felt at ease with his presence and was able to concentrate on writing my report. Some time later he told me he is here to soothe me (probably because of my final university year and stress associated with it) and than I felt a pat on my head. That seemed nice; I thanked him and asked for how long he has been around my flat. I focused to hear his voice instead of him putting thoughts in my head. I heard him whispering in my ear but couldn't make out words. Than a thought came saying "later on" which meant we will talk later on when I'll be in bed ready to sleep.
Everything seemed nice so I opened up to listen to him before I would fall asleep. He told me his name again and than the strange part started to happen. Trying to listen to him I started to hear a lot of whispers in both of my ears (like that pshhhhh sound when you are trying to find a radio station on the radio). It scared me and I said I will talk to him tomorrow because I m tired. I was falling asleep but the sound in my ears became louder and I heard him saying my name and that he loves me. That empathically felt very sincere but desperate and I thanked him and again said I would talk to him tomorrow. Than another voice angrily screamed " oh yeah she will talk" (sarcastically) and it felt like an old dirty street beggar. Then there was a bit of a voice of a little girl in the background and then my ghost started to whisper soothingly "I will always be with you, I'll never leave you". By this time I was in panic and started to do energy shielding. That didn't help to stop voices talking and whispering in my head and I started to ask higher powers to help and wished not to hear entities, their voices or touches. After about 5 minutes of me shielding and asking for protection from above it all subsided.
Yesterday I mentally talked to him before going to sleep and he told me he was a soldier who was killed by a mine accidently and he didn't want to die. He also told me I look "as pretty as then" probably referring to my past life. He also asked to "make love" (his expression) with me or to kiss him. I replied that it would not be right and that I have feelings for another living man (referring to my boyfriend). While talking he would also lay next to me or even on my back. I heard a voice of another man asking "how is it going" and him replying " oh well, she is ignoring me" (they talked about me).
I asked him to show me more about himself in a dream as it feels quite stressful for me to talk to him while am awake. So this night I was shown that I possibly was his wife in 1920's, but he was not a very caring husband although not violent. We had 3 children together and by the time my youngest child was about 4-5 years old I fell in love with another man. I think it was after my ghost (my past life husband) was killed.
I am very grateful to anyone who took time to read this. Please leave your opinion about my situation and give me advice if you can about what I should do. So far I understand that my ghost is my past life lover who s primary reason to still be here is to be near me. I think he can't let go of his accidental death and that he can't be with me in real life. Do you think I am right? How can I help him to let go and send it to upper realms to rest?
I feel uneasy as feel I should help him but I don t know how.
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