I have mentioned in comments that I have had an experience that I have been avoiding. I think it's time to tell it then... (By the way, I am a young teen.)
I had an early night in late December, winter, in my bed and was just at that point where your no longer awake but not yet asleep. My eyelids were droopy. It was then when I saw a shadow quickly cross my night-vision and it fully awoke me. I sat up very quickly and saw nothing. Lying back down I assumed it was just my imagination, just some vivid weirdness.
This experience was real. I know it was not a dream. I was lying on my back still and I felt a presence beside me, it put pressure on my mattress and heard heavy, deep breathing. I couldn't move my body, I was completely paralyzed. Then this pressure moved on top of me and 'IT' entered me. It was invisible-rape. I don't really know how to describe it. But all I know is that it lasted at least a minimum of an hour and it hurt. A lot. I'm still a virgin but does this experience beg to differ?
I haven't spoken of it, as I assumed people would mark me crazy. But crazy I am not. This was real and I am at a crossroads.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I need any advice you viewers can offer, please.