Demon Eel Hands

I am a 27 year-old male living in Boston, MA, but my story starts in the suburbs of Boston somewhere in the neighborhood of 1991...

It was a few years after my parents divorced. I was about 8 years old. Around that time in church I started questioning my faith. Looking back I see that as very strange for an 8 year old to question his faith. I always said "I never asked Jesus to die for me," and "There's so many religions in the world why is this one right?"

During that time, and I can't remember if it was a dream or real life anymore, but I had to recurring experiences that I believe are connected.

In the morning before school I would wake up. I would get dressed and walk to school. I would see everything exactly as it was that very day. I would walk across the field to the crossing guard then about another block to school. Right when I would get to school I would snap back to my body and still be in bed. Not waking up but kind of waking up. Lol can't explain it.

But around the same time as these supposed astral projections I remember walking through my kitchen suddenly completely enveloped by fear. PURE TERROR. I couldn't move. All I can visually recall is black snakes or eels or hands wrapping around all my extremities. Though I describe them as snakes or eels I'm just describing the shape. They were formless black wraps that completely paralyzed me.

I get the feeling it wasn't a single entity but several.

I don't know what happened first. Being frozen with fear or the dreams of seeing my world as it was that day without leaving my room.

But ever since then I have avoided all things religious and good.

I often make horrible decisions that hurt others around me

I have a short temper

I have battled crippling depression my whole life.

Only recently have I decided to look into the incidents in my past and have been troubled with even worse depression and anger and anxiety.

I have started praying recently and meaning it. But weird things have been happening...

I can feel what feels like an angry man figuratively breathing down my neck in the dark or anywhere day or night when I'm alone. Its the same fear I used to feel when I was a child except I'm not paralyzed anymore.

Recently I stayed awake an entire night because I was too scared to go to sleep. I decided to take a shower once the sun was well up into the sky. As I was getting into the shower and thinking to myself that I was now safe, my Venetian blinds FLEW off of the window.

I had my roommate take a look at them after putting them back up and the consensus we came to was that if they were properly locked in place as we both know they were: then it should have been impossible for them to just fall off. And they have never just fallen off as long as we've lived here.

I want to know more. I know I should just pray and ask for protection and ect. But a large part of me is insanely curious about the happenings when I was young and now.

I ultimately want to know if I can be hypnotized to see more clearly an image of what wrapped its formless hands around me.

I want to know if its a demon that's plagued me my whole life.

I'm sorry this story is so sloppy but I'm writing this on my phone. I just want people who have had similar experiences to contact me about this.

Similar experiences being so called "astral projection" being accosted by a being of terror, and having unexplained depression and anger despite knowing you are truly a good person