Recently, I've been having trouble sleeping. Before it would usually be drug's fault.
What I first thought to be a special nightmare of it's kind, turned out to be a real-time event.
One day at 16:00, when I woke up, I saw a woman. An uncontrollable question popped out in my mind. Was she dead? And I hoped so. Because her mouth wide opened over mine was as close as it could get. Breathless, she was dead, or so I think, because I think she was just breathing deeply into my ears. She had a leather band covering her eyes, attached around her head. Fully stretched, she was hanging on her hands and feet. She wore a strange rubber-made suit that had metallic chains attached from her wrist and feet to the 4 opposite corners of my ceiling. And by her dark colored skin, she had been dead for quite a long time. I took a precious amount of time looking at her for three reasons. First, she probably knew me better than I knew her, so I had to meet her. Two, she was dead and yet appearing in my room and in my wake, and I wanted to clarify her presence. Finally, and worst, I was paralyzed and could move nothing else but my eyes. It wasn't fear, emotions, or anything that came from me that triggered my paralysis. The truth that I later found out was that some spirits have the ability of paralyzing living beings.
Knowing that there was nothing else I could do but move my eyes. I did all that I could do best: inspect. I looked around my entire room. The sun was showering into the room through the 4 windows, giving an orange-like atmosphere of well-being to my chamber. By the colour of the sun, I knew that I was awake at 16:00 just as I expected it to happen before falling asleep. A friend of mine was snoring next to me. All the objects that are in my room were in place at that moment. Even the air conditioner was roaring on and off like it always did. Everything in my bedroom was perfectly where it was meant to be, except for one person: her.
This is when I stare at my beautifully innocent white wall on my right asking myself what in the world I was going to do now with a dead 20 something year old girl hanging on top of me while I was being paralysed. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and hoped to wake up normally somehow. When I opened my eyes, everything around me was the same, except for the girl. She had disappeared.
Today, I don't know what to feel about this experience. I remember her entire body and appearance perfectly. I was attracted by her the moment I saw her. I wouldn't dare touch her. But if she would touch me, I doubt that I would show much resistance. Besides, if she hadn't been wearing this "sex suit" on her, I probably would've felt more comfortable with losing control.
How can I judge this girl? How can I gain more control over this situation? Generally speaking, is this good or bad?
Until now, I always felt like it was bad to have something with the dead. But I've noticed that some people have been having positive experiences with succubi/incubi. If anyone can tell me how to see what is good from what is bad, if anyone has any suggestions that come in their minds, feel free to post a comment. The more you write back, the happier I'll be.
- Kevinizer (: