It was the week before Christmas 2012, when I heard my first "Voice", which I believe was not of our plane. I had heard other people tell of "voices", even my hubby Ray, had his own experience, with our beloved daughter Angel. I was slightly envious, I must admit! But, on the other hand, I had, time and again smelled evidence of her presence in our home. (She passed away in June 2012.)
It was Tuesday afternoon, Ray was off at work (his only job of the year; playing Father Christmas) and Shenay (our eight year old grand-daughter) was sitting in front of his computer, watching "Home Alone". I nipped into the kitchen to pack away dishes, which I had washed earlier in the day. I had to "steal time" while Shenay spent the long school holiday with us! She is very bright, but usually doesn't like to spend too much time on her own.
Anyway, as I was packing the plates away, I heard "Mom" being called, from inside the house. I stopped what I was doing, crossed the short distance to the serving hatch, which overlooks the dining room, and then the computer room (open plan, only a step dividing the two). I could see the back of Shenay's head, and the computer screen clearly. She was so engrossed, watching the movie that I just knew that it was not her that had called. I noticed too, that it was not at a part of the movie, where the little boy had called for his mother.
Puzzled, I moved back into the kitchen. I was no sooner in the kitchen, when I heard "Mom", in a stage whisper again! I stood there, dumb-struck, as I recognized the voice; it was Angel's voice. I was so flabbergasted, that I didn't respond... I am kicking myself now, for not answering!
It was a day or so after this occurrence, that Nicky (our eldest daughter, who has bravely taken on the responsibility of raising her sister's child) phoned to find out how Shenay was doing. During our telephonic conversation, I happened to tell Nicky about the "voice" that I heard. Nicky replied wistfully, that I was so lucky, that she wished Angel would contact her, give her some sign to validate her presence.
We ended the conversation, but something was nagging at the back of my mind. I sat and ruminated for a while; then it struck me! I had previously read an absolutely brilliant account, written by Zzsgranny, entitled "The Signs Are There If We Pay Attention". I subsequently looked up this account and mailed it to Nicky; she read it, the day before Christmas.
Early on Christmas morning, Ray, Shenay and I, piled into our car as we were to have Christmas Breakfast at Nicky's town-house, a little to the north of Johannesburg. I was somewhat down-cast, as it would be our first Christmas without Angel. (I missed her smiling face and ready laugh dreadfully)
Nicky greeted us at her front door. I noticed a "light" in her eyes, but thought that it was just the sight of Shenay, as she had not seen her for a while. (The two of them have bonded really well; actually better than our expectations!) Nicky was excited, but not only at the sight of Shenay; it was that she had news for us!
Firstly, Nicky wanted to show us her "Christmas gift" to her "baby sister". She picked up a certificate and papers, proving that she had named a star for Angel in the constellation of Leo (her sisters birth sign) down to the coordinates and all! I was so touched by her thought - I started to weep! (Admittedly it didn't take me much, to shed tears at this point)
Secondly, Nicky reached out, and picked up a white feather, practically waving it under my nose. Nicky chimed in, "Mom, look what I found outside my patio door this morning. I opened the door, and there it was, just lying at my feet, in plain sight." The penny dropped, almost instantly! With Zzsgranny's account still being fresh in our minds, we literally fell into each other's arms, both of us shedding tears. Ray just stood there, going "What? What did I miss?" Through our tears and sniffs, we managed to explain it all to him.
Nicky put a framed photo of Angel in her kitchen. She placed the white feather in front of the photo, and then lit a white candle, which she placed in front of both. She proceeded to cook us all a scrumptious breakfast; looking up at the photo every now and then.
I was happy for Nicky! Now that she had got her "confirmation"; but I still sought advice from Zzsgranny. I mailed her with my "story", asking if she thought it was a sign, or a coincidence, her reply, "OMG that has to be the most awesome story I've read in a long time LOL... You have me sitting here in tears, and no, don't feel bad... You know how I am with the "coincidence" thing... No such animal LOL"
This answer made my old heart jump for joy! I felt that I had "proof" from somebody else, and that I wasn't just telling Nicky "just words" to make her feel better. I mailed Nicky the letter, and Zzsgranny's response. Next thing I knew; Nicky had mailed all her "believer" friends, Zzsgranny's account from YGS, and our letters! (The little minx, has she no sense of privacy?) Well, after that, she got many lovely replies. Some of which I will copy/paste.
What an awesome experience and truly priceless! I believe God knows our deepest thoughts and knows our deepest emotions from the heart and sends us these little gifts from heaven to remind us that our loves ones are still there watching over us. I can only imagine what comfort it must have brought to you guys. Beautiful!
We can smile at the hope that one day we will all be together!
What a lovely email to receive!
Thank you - it really warmed my heart and soul.
I have always thought that feathers are angels.
I hope you are well and getting stronger each day cooks!
Oh my word Nicks! You see? That's her way of communicating with you and may you find a feather every single time you need one... Get a jar and fill it up with the feathers you receive from Angel... I know she's smiling on you.
All My Love & Light to you and your family.
That is so AWESOME! So glad you had a special sign from Angel to let you know she's still around watching over you all xxxxx
PS I really loved the feather 'story'. I'm glad for Nicky's sake, she needed some confirmation. It took my mom 4 years to visit me
Glad you're keeping a journal of all these happenings! Would you know that a few days after you sent me the story of the white feather, I found one behind my car in the garage:-)
I went on to ask if this lady if she thought this feather was from Angel, or her late husband. Her reply:-
It's hard to tell whether it was from Angel or D, but either way I don't mind;-) I just feel blessed to have gotten the message!
Thank you all, for reading. Your input will be welcome too.
PS: On the 9th January, Nicky found another white feather to add to her collection. She had been in hospital for a colonoscopy; shortly after she had been discharged, she found the feather lying directly in her path. She took this as additional proof, that Angel had been there with her, when she awoke from her anesthetic.