I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night.
The front half of my body was high off the bed. Not sitting up but neither lying down. Not doing a crunch or a sit-up. At that angle that's impossible (especially for me) to hold. My stomach and my muscles weren't strained. This wasn't me holding me at a 45 degree angle.
I'd never experienced anything *like this* so my instant reaction was to move. I couldn't. I waved my arms around to sit up, nothing. I waved them to get back on the bed. I couldn't. It was if my bed had lifted with me. Whatever was behind my back - it was solid. And holding me there.
I wasn't processing what was happening with fear. I never do when I experience something this unusual. I always try to think of what's rational. But right now I was stuck and I couldn't work out why. Was I having a back spasm or some physical reaction? I couldn't move but I felt no tension or discomfort.
After a few minutes of struggling, everything changed. I wasn't let go of. I didn't fall back to my bed.
I was pushed. With force. And as I hit the bed hard, I felt a strong presence, like a strong wind go through my body. It's a strange thing to describe. It went through me and the bed. Through my face. It felt abrupt & angry.
As with all of my experiences, they don't happen often. Maybe once a decade. But this was recent and by far the worst. I'd like to know how I can stop them. They've happened ever since I lost my grandmother. I was with her when she died. I've seen theories from other people who've experienced near death and afterwards begun to see or experience things that weren't visible before. Any advice or experiences any one else can share, I'd be grateful for. Thank you.