In the morning before school, I would sit straight up and mechanically climb out of bed. I would then walk into my mothers room all the while thinking to myself "Why am I doing this?" I felt like I wasn't controlling my actions and I couldn't gain control. After going into my mom's room, I'd go into the bathroom and wash my hands... I'd look in the mirror for a second and still, mechanically, walk back into the bedroom and sit on the edge of the bed, in the center. Still thinking to myself, "why am I doing this?" I felt so blank at the time and looked like it when I'd look into the mirror.
But I'd sit there for about a minute and stare straight ahead, not moving, not doing anything but trying to get out of this trance. Usually, the hold would be released and I'd do what I originally planned to do.
Though, one of the times this happened, I could remember waking up staring at the ceiling after the whole process. My arms were spread out and my legs were hanging off the end of the bed. I sat up completely lost and confused, only being able to remember randomly washing my hands in my mother's bathroom.
Could this be a symptom of sleep walking? Though, I thought sleep walking consisted of not being aware of ones actions. But during my spells, I would be aware of what was going on but not able to control myself.
I honestly felt like someone had taken over my body. Any explanations?