I Don't Know What To Make Of This

I really don't know how to explain this but I'll try my best. I always wondered why these strange things happen to me and I'm trying to remember when it first happened.

I was pretty young and I had got hold of a Ouija board. I was playing with it in my room. I remember turning the lights off and trying to contact anything and when nothing happened I got mad and started saying some bad things, saying this was a lie. I gave up finally threw the board against the wall. As I left the room I stopped and looked back. I remember this part so vividly. I was so scared there was a pretty sturdy wooden chair that was next to me when I was playing with the board, it just fell over there was no like scooting motion or scuffling the chair just tipped over. I think that's what started it.

I'll make this part short, I've had friends over back in high school and they didn't like my house. I had 3 friends come at one point to pick me up. They stood by the front door and the front door would open so I closed it then the back door opened (I live in a farm house and it's over 100 years old and its brick with heavy wood door) like someone came in then left.

At night me and my sister would sleep right next to each other at night in the living room where we could hear strange noises. At first I took it as I have an old house but I could hear footsteps coming from our room or in the kitchen and the silverware would make a lot of noise like someone was messing with them. Just strange things like that.

I had friends from different groups (its high school) and we walked outside on my farm late in the evening. We would go into the barns and play in the loft and almost every time they've told me they thought they saw someone with us, dark figure kind of tall but it'd be gone.

My husband (just got married) told me when we were younger and went into the barn and I remember, we were having some "fun" and he stopped he said, "I think your little brother is in here." (He's taller than me and 5 years younger) all I said was, "huh" he says, "I thought it was him because I saw someone crawling behind that stuff." Needless to say that scared the shiat out of me and I was out of there in a jiffy!

There have been times I would wake up but still be asleep (does that make sense?) and think I would see someone and hear my name whispered or I'd wake up not able to move with this horrible pain in my chest... I remember those parts because my sister would be right next to me and I tried to call out to her but I couldn't. It was as if I'd lost voice. I just starred at her and cried... After that happening more than once I stopped telling her what happened and we kind of drifted away from her.

I don't know if this has anything to do with ghosts but I had this dream back in high school. I'm sitting in a dark room with a dim light and these voices are telling me something bad is going to happen in 4 days. I thought it was dumb so I told my friend and said let's wait another 3 days. Well on the last day my best friend had another close guy friend kill himself. I never felt so awful and I felt it was my fault like I could've done something.

I'm sorry it's choppy but I'm doing this on a cell and my fingers are going numb and please don't be mad at me for bad grammar! I am sorry!