I have never done anything like this before, but I guess I am looking for some kind of answer. I am a 20 year old female living in Canada. I just found out today when I was little there was a man named John who I use to talk to, I may have been 6. However ever since I was 16 up to this day I have always been seeing, hearing, feeling things. Ghosts, spirits, angels, demons... I am not sure. It started when I was 16 - I noticed it after 3 deaths had occurred. No one I had ever known had ever died. Family, friend, death was new to me. At 16 my Grandpa died of cancer, following that a friend was murdered in an apartment I use to live in and a few weeks after that my Aunt died of cancer. It was horrible.
One night I was alone in my room and I heard a man's voice call out my name, once as a whisper, then louder and then louder. I ran out of my room. Since then I see people in my room when I sleep, women, they sit on beds, chairs or stand but they are always looking at me. They are always in the same position. At first I thought it could be my sister who died in a car accident when I was little - We have lived in this house for 40+years. Last week I saw a little girl sitting on the couch when I came home late at night, another time someone tapped me on the shoulder when I was walking past a cemetery. When my sisters use Ouija boards they are always attracted to me. I have a bunk bed and when she isn't home... Almost every night, the bed shakes as if someone was on it, I check... And no one is there.
I have been told they are demons, which does not help me sleep easy. As far as my faith goes, I am not sure what I believe. I want to believe in god...
I have had a lot of trauma happen in my life which I hear can cause demons to attach them to you. I have been raped, beaten, abused... And just have had horrible things happen to me...
What should I do, they scare me and I don't want to see them or have them talk to me. And I know I am not crazy, this has happened for far too long.
I have 7 siblings, and share a room with 3 girls, they don't see anything. These things follow me to different houses/places