I have submitted a story to this site regarding My Admirer, a ghost or whatever he is that I had an experience with. I have always felt him near me but he has not made contact since our time together years ago until February 25th of this year. My aunt, who myself and my son were living with due to her being ill, had passed on February 24th and I was devastated more so then I ever thought I could be.
I had been up all night trying to get things in order and waiting for my mother's plane to arrive when at around 3am I felt dizzy and must have fainted. When I came to I was on the sofa and he was there kneeling next to me with one hand on my forehead and the other holding both of my hands. He whispered something like "are you ok or alright" I can't really remember the words clear. I was watching his face because the look on his face was almost heartbroken. Then, like a dummy, I pulled my hand out from under his and reached up to touch his face and he backed away real quick like I was going to hurt him or something. By now we were both on our feet although I felt like I was going to puke but I said "please don't leave me again" and to my surprise he took a step toward me, reached out and helped me sit back down. He sat next to me (me still on the verge of puking), he wrapped his arms around me, and I laid my head on his shoulder.
The next thing I remember is waking up to someone knocking on the door. I was lying (alone) on the sofa and heard my mother's voice saying my name outside the door. Four days later, after the funeral, family, lawyers, and everything else was done I was determined to make him come back to me so I drug a lawn into the trees next to my aunt's house and said out loud like a fool "I'm not moving until I see you again" and unfolded the chair and sat.
I had only had my eyes closed for a few seconds when I felt a pressure on my face. I opened my eyes and there he was, smiling down at me. I smiled back and before I could cover my mouth the words were spewing out like the exorcist. I said "I love you and have for all these years", "why have you left me alone all this time", etc... I'm not sure how long I talked before I noticed that he was just smiling and waiting. When I finally shut up he said that he has always loved me and that he has always been here with me and that he can't be a regular part of my life the way he wants because it wasn't allowed. When I asked what he meant he just said it wasn't allowed.
He sat with me until the sun went down, kissed me, whispered I love you in my ear and said that he would see me again soon. I told him that I loved him and said "but when will I see YOU again", he smiled and touched me face then was gone.